bookman_junior

bookman_junior @ 2008-08-09T21:58:00

2008-08-09T14:54:22Z

Tomorrow's Lavi's birthday in our country, so here I am, posting a fic yet again.

Title: The Best Gifts Lavi Received This Year
Characters/Pairings: Lavi/ Allen
Rating: T
Warning: Shonen-ai inside, be warned~ don't like it? Don't read~
Disclaimer: I do not own D.gray-man or any of it's characters. Hoshino does.

This is my first time writing for this pairing so I'm not really sure if it's good. I'll leave it to the readers to decide that. Hope you enjoy!

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Allen sat at one of the cafeteria tables, eating as vigorous as ever. Timcanpy was also there, devouring what seemed to be a thousand times of its own size. It didn’t take long before the duo finished their meal. Allen placed his empty, final bowl down with a sigh. He eaten all the food that he’d ordered and replenished his hunger so he could think better.

Now, this left the white-haired teen to ponder about something quite challenging. That ‘something’ was finding a gift for Lavi. It shouldn’t really be as hard as this. The only problem is that Allen was indecisive.

Sure, he had thought of buying Lavi a book, but then he had to decide against it since the redhead might have read that already. Allen could practically imagine the scene now.

It would go along the lines of: “Happy Birthday, Lavi!” And Allen would give the book to the birthday celebrant. Of course, the present was neatly wrapped. The cursed boy could vividly see what would happen next after that.

Lavi would say a ‘thank you’ and open the present. Only to find a book he had read before. “Oh, I’ve read this before.” He would say, looking at Allen with a somewhat apologetic grin.

Just thinking about that scenario made Allen’s face flush with discomfiture. That would just be a major blow to his pride. A shudder always runs down his spine whenever he thought about it.

Allen wanted to give Lavi something special. But, he can’t quite place his finger on what would be special.

“Ohh, what should I do, Tim?” Allen placed his face on the table, sighing pretty heavily. The golem didn’t show any sign of advice, but at least he tried to comfort his owner by patting him on the head.

A smile slowly graced Allen’s pale lips. He was rather touched by Timcanpy’s way of showing solicitude. “Thank you, Tim.” So, Allen closed his eyes as he relaxed and contemplated about the gift. ‘I wonder…what would be special to Lavi…’ Slowly, Allen allowed his eyelids to open, just to realize that his face was mere inches away from an all-too-familiar redhead’s.

“Good mornin’, A~llen~!” Lavi greeted playfully with his typical grin. Allen blinked once, twice, then suddenly stood up in shock and shouted.

“AHH!!! La-Lavi! Don’t do that! You’ll give me a heart attack.” Allen immediately felt the attentive eyes of everyone in the area focused on him. He blushed with embarrassment and quickly bowed at different directions, apologizing for his sudden outburst. And so, the multitude returned to their businesses as if nothing had happened. Although, a few hearty laughs and giggles were heard from some of the dining occupants that only made the poor young man feel more awkward.

Allen sat back down and half-heartedly glared at the person at fault for his slight predicament. Lavi lifted his head from the table and noticed this; he tried to convey his apology. “Hahaha, I’m sorry, Allen. I didn’t mean to shock ya like that. Promise!” The redhead scratched the back of his head when he saw his companion pout.

“C’mon now, don’t make that face.” Lavi eye closed as his smile grew. “Just think about it as an experience you can learn from!” Allen continued to glare for a moment, but eventually dropped it. He couldn’t really be incensed at someone for too long…that is, if the person wasn’t Kanda.

“It’s fine. Just don’t do that again.” Allen firmly looked at his friend as Tim landed on his head.

“Thank you.” Lavi beamed at the younger Exorcist. “Anyway, what were you thinking of awhile ago? You seemed awfully bothered.” Curiosity and concern replaced the smile on Lavi’s face as he asked.

Allen ruminated whether he should just ask his question or think for himself. He gave it some thought and in the end, he gave in and finally chose the first option. “Lavi, you see, I’ve been thinking…”

“Yes? I’m listening.” Lavi nodded, deeply intent on hearing Allen’s dilemma.

“I’ve been thinking of what to get for you.” Allen’s statement only resulted to Lavi’s clueless expression.

“For me? What for?” Lavi blinked and pointed at himself as if there was another person for Allen to talk to. Tim was there as well, but the little golem seemed to have wandered around the cafeteria, leaving the two Exorcists to converse more privately.

Allen had to stare at Lavi for a moment due to surprise. Once again, he had two options. First, Lavi was just pretending that he forgot his own birthday. Or second, the Bookman heir was simply not aware of the date. Allen had to shake his head before he snapped out of that train of thought and answered.

“You….don’t know?” The white-haired lad felt a bead of sweat run down his cheek as Lavi’s face grew even more puzzled than before.

“Huh? What do you mean?” Now, it was Lavi’s turn to pout. “Tell me already!”

“Do you know what day it is tomorrow?” A blanket of silence seemed to wrap around the pair for a brief moment, making the atmosphere feel a little…uncanny.

Fortunately, Lavi quickly recovered as realization hit him like a boulder. “Oh! You meant for my birthday?”

“Yes.” Allen added a nod to make sure that the other would understand.

Laughter was Lavi’s following reaction. “Don’t worry about that! There’s no need for you to think too much about it, anyway.” Lavi reached over and fondly ruffled Allen’s snow-colored hair. The muddled boy was about to make a protest at the gesture, but before he could utter a word, Lavi spoke again “I wouldn’t mind if nobody gives me presents. Trust me.” The Bookman Junior gave a smile as he finished his statement. But even though it was a warm smile, Allen can’t help but feel that something was off.

In that moment, Allen could have sworn that he saw bitterness underlying Lavi’s smile. And Lavi’s voice sounded cheerful, and yet, Allen felt as though…sadness was there.

Just as Allen was about to question Lavi again, the latter removed his hand from the younger one’s hair and stood. He grinned down at Allen with no trace of whatsoever the cursed boy had momentarily seen.

“But since you’re Allen, I guess you won’t give up until I tell you what I would like for a present…” Lavi placed his hand on his chin, thinking for a little bit.

“Of course I won’t!” Allen confirmed with determination evident in both his features and voice. “So, please tell me.” Lavi stared at him with a thoughtful countenance. ‘Something that I want…’

“I don’t really kno-” Lavi couldn’t finish his sentence as an idea suddenly shot through him like lightning. Then, a grin almost-too-abruptly appeared on his face. “Allen, I think I just figured out what I want.” Lavi’s grin seemed to grow even more as he raised his index finger to show he’s got a point.

“What might that be, Lavi?” Allen inquired with a little doubt shouting at the back of his mind. Somehow, the way Lavi was grinning didn’t really promise complete and utter safety. But since tomorrow was Lavi’s birthday, Allen deduced that he should just play along.

“You’ll find out. Come with me!” Lavi grabbed hold of Allen’s hand and pulled the startled boy up.

“But what about Tim?” Allen scanned the room for his little friend, but he couldn’t find it at all.

“It’s ok, we won’t take long.” And so, Lavi gently guided Allen by the hand until they left the busy cafeteria. As they stood by the doorway, Lavi released Allen’s hand and started to walk. “Let’s go, Allen.”

“Where are we going?”

“To the library.”

“Oh.” A thick stillness soon surrounded the pair as they walked down the long halls of the Order. Nothing but their soft footsteps can be heard around them. But it wasn’t uncomfortable silence.

Although rather enjoying the stroll, Allen, wanting to know something,, called Lavi’s attention.

“Lavi.” The addressed, young man looked at his companion over his shoulder, but didn’t stop walking.

“What is it?”

“Where were you yesterday?”

“Eh? Why do you ask?”

“Well, I was just wondering, because I didn’t see you yesterday.” Allen smiled a little nervously.

“Oh, I wasn’t really doing much. But now that I think about it, I did do a lot yesterday.” Lavi smiled back and faced front again. Allen moved forward to walk beside Lavi for a better conversation. Lavi continued to talk after the younger one caught up to him.

“Y’see, Panda’s birthday was yesterday so I was trying to behave myself as a gift to him.” The redhead scratched his cheek and laughed. “But I only ended up with a mountainous heap of work.”

Allen couldn’t stifle his chuckle when he saw the face that Lavi made at that comment. “That must have been hard on you.”

“Yeah, I had to finish all of it before today and my hand was cramping real bad already.” Lavi’s elapsed misery was evident in the way he relayed his hardship. He waved his arms about as he remembered his long toil. He breathed out a heavy sigh and smiled again. “But at least I think it was worth it.”

Allen listened carefully to Lavi, sincerely wanting to know what Lavi thought. The Bookman apprentice knew that Allen wanted to know more so he did the bean sprout a favor and answered the unasked question.

“When I did all the logs Gramps assigned me to do, I believe I made him pleased. And that’s something kinda rare to see.” Lavi cross his hands behind his head before he continued. “Making the old Panda happy on at least that day is the best gift I could think of for him.” Lavi closed his eye for a moment as though he was recalling yesterday’s events. “And I didn’t even call him ‘Panda’ yesterday!” He added proudly.

Allen could only smile at Lavi. He thought that it was really nice of Lavi to do that for Bookman. But, Allen felt it unnecessary to verbalize it.

“Here we are!” Allen was pulled away from his thoughts by Lavi’s proclamation. The redhead faced him as they were by the door.

“Uhm, what are we here for, Lavi?” The young gentleman looked around, feeling just a measly bit of tension.

“For my present.” Here, Lavi started to fidget and a blush could be clearly seen adorning his cheeks. “Uhh, Allen, you wouldn’t mind me receiving your gift in advance, right?” He managed to ask, stuttering a little.

Allen raised a fine brow at Lavi’s sudden change of character. What could possibly be making Lavi act like that? “I don’t mind at all, but I don’t have a present for you yet.” Allen lifted one of his hands and gestured. “How could I give it to you?” Allen was very confused now. How could he possibly give something that he doesn’t have?

Lavi grinned again despite his blush. He was fully aware of his flushed face and he berated himself for doing that. Scratching his cheek nervously, Lavi tilted his head to the side. “I could get it now, honestly.” Allen raised his eyebrow again.

“How?” Allen watched Lavi let out a breath of nervousness tried to make his blush go away. But Lavi eventually gave up in banishing his blush and faced Allen.

“Allen, please don’t hate me for this.” Before Allen could react, Lavi had closed the short distance between them and placed his lips on Allen’s own.

Allen was more than shocked at what was happening, but he doesn’t have the heart to break the kiss. They weren’t even using their tongues, yet! Allen had never imagined Lavi’s lips would be this soft nor did he ever imagine that Lavi could kiss this gently. He had never even imagined Lavi kissing him! Everything that he was experiencing seemed like a dream, but what he was feeling was all true.

And the dream ended as fast as it had started. It left Allen feeling dizzy. His legs suddenly felt like noodles and he almost felt like fainting. He slightly recovered from his daze when he heard Lavi calling him.

“Allen! Allen! G-Get a hold of yourself!” Lavi shook him by the shoulders and he appeared regretful.

“La…vi?” Allen started, still slightly wobbly and unsure of what to say.

“I’m sorry! I shouldn’t have done that.” Lavi ducked his head.

“N-No! Don’t apologize, Lavi!” Allen finally blurted out. This surprised Lavi into looking at him again.

“Huh?” was the only word that Lavi was able to emit due to his sheer shock and confusion.

Allen gathered up his consciousness and was finally able to rid himself of the cumbersome vertigo he felt. He touched Lavi’s arms. “I…” Allen paused, searching for the best words he could muster. “I didn’t hate that kiss! I think I actually…” He can’t bring himself to continue the rest. He can’t openly say that he liked the kiss, but neither can he deny the fact that he enjoyed it. He wasn’t gay! ...Was he?

Again, Allen’s train of thought was cut off when Lavi hugged him. For a second, the fair-haired Exorcist became worried that Lavi was crying, but he was wrong. Lavi’s laughter was such a relief to hear after that incredibly tense situation.

“Ahaha, thank you, Allen. I’m happy to hear that from you.” Lavi loosened his hug a bit. “I was really scared you’d hate it.” Lavi breathed out, unintentionally tickling Allen’s neck. The white-haired boy felt his face heat up due to the feeling and he awkwardly hugged Lavi back.

“Don’t say it like that. I won’t hate you for something like this.” Allen comforted honestly. He smiled even though Lavi couldn’t see it.

“Sorry. I can’t help myself.” Lavi closed his eye and cherished Allen’s embrace. “I’m relieved.” He unhurriedly detached himself from Allen and stood straight. He fidgeted again and avoided meeting Allen’s eyes at first, but he eventually did.

“Lavi...” Allen was still thinking of what to say.

“Uhm, Allen, I uhh, how do I say this? Uhh…” Lavi looked at Allen and grinned sheepishly. “Thank you for the gift.”

Allen could only stare back blankly at first, but he quickly snapped out of it and smiled back warmly. “You’re very welcome.”

“Ah! I just remembered that I need to do something else so, see ya!” Lavi made a move to go, but he appeared to have recalled something else and he turned back at Allen. “Before that…”

Lavi swiftly neared Allen and placed a chaste kiss on Allen’s soft lips. “Bye~!” Lavi enthusiastically waved at him as he ran and turned to the left, going out of sight.

Allen was left in front of the library doors, still gazing at the direction Lavi had gone. He consciously raised a hand to his lips and touched it with trembling fingers. All of a sudden, Allen felt all the blood in his body go up to his face as he lucidly remembered the feel of Lavi’s lips on his. It was not considered a real kiss by some people, but it was still a kiss.

Covering his face with both hands, Allen leaned a little to the wall. “L-Lavi kissed me…” Allen’s eyes were wide with embarrassment. He frantically turned his head around, trying to check if someone saw them. Finding no one, Allen allowed himself to relax.

‘Th-That was really shocking. I never expected that Lavi would…do that. But…’ Allen’s lips curled up into a warm and genuine smile and he started to walk. “Now, I have an idea on what to give Lavi next year.”

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So, uhh, as I said, this is my first time to write for this pair. Please feel free to leave comments or constructive criticism. I'd appreciate it if you told me what you thought about it honestly. Thank you for reading! ^^

bookman_junior @ 2008-06-06T21:54:00

2008-06-06T14:56:11Z

Yo! It's Yuu's birthday so I thought I'd post something. So, here's a fanfic for anyone who's interested! ^^

Title: Happy Birthday, Yuu! (Yes, I know, I suck at titles...)
Characters/Pairing: Kanda and Lavi
Rating: T (to be safe)
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from D.gray-man, Hoshino does.
Summary: Kanda absolutely hates his birthday, but can Lavi change that?

If there was a day that Kanda Yuu despised more than the rest of the days in a year, that day would be his very own birthday. Why? Simple, he just didn’t want to celebrate it. But that fact just can’t get through the thick skulls of the members of the Order especially a certain man with a sister complex. Most of the Finders already had it drilled into their heads, but they always ended up helping anyway.

Now, that day, his birthday, has once again arrived. That was why he was sitting on his bed thinking, yes, thinking. His hands were folded, covering his mouth. If one would look at him, he would think that the young swordsman was very intensely thinking about something of great importance. And he might just be right.

“What…” Kanda started, whispering to himself with a deep frown. Then, his eyes gained a dangerous glint of frustration. “…the hell should I do to stop those idiots?!” He almost shouted. He stood up and looked out of his broken window.

Ever since morning, he had been considering any possible way to stop his so called birthday celebration. He hadn’t even dared to step out of his room yet, despite his growling stomach. It must be around noon by now.

Kanda gritted his teeth in anger. This morning, he woke up assuming that everything would go normal like the other days, well, as normal is it can be in the Black Order, that is. But as he was about to open the door to get breakfast, he overheard two people, probably Finders, conversing outside his room.

“It’s that day today, right?” One of the two asked. Kanda distinctly heard the implication on the word ‘that’. He grew suspicious so he decided to listen more.

“Yeah, Head Supervisor Komui said that we should help.” The other voice said, sounding a little scared.

“But he doesn’t want a party, right?” The first one asked, sounding scared as well. His companion gave a long sigh.

“I know but…” there was an audible pause as the person seemed to search for the right words. “I don’t know who I should be more afraid of…!!!” He finally said with distress coating his words.

“Y-You’re right…I still remember what happened to that other Finder who refused to cooperate with Head Supervisor…”

”I heard he stayed at the infirmary for…five whole months, right?”

“Yes, it was horrifying…the Supervisor chased him down several halls, riding Komurin and firing away the entire time…”

“But Sir Kanda’s fury isn’t any less painful, is it?”

“You’re correct…” After that sentence, Kanda couldn’t hear anymore of their conversation as they continued to walk away from his room.

Hearing that discussion, Kanda immediately realized what day it was. He wasn’t stupid enough forget his own birthday…well, true, he did forget, but that was only because Kanda was not the type to keep track of dates, not even if there was something special about a certain day. Yes, yes, that’s definitely one of the character traits of the entity called Kanda Yuu.

So, here was Kanda trying desperately to come up with a plan to prevent the party from happening. If worse comes to worse, he’d probably trash up the whole place, thus ruining the gala. He tried to remember what he had done last year to stop the event, but he didn’t recall how he had stopped it. Instead, he remembered how he had been forced into it, no matter what he did.

The swordsman gritted his teeth, muttering curses under his breath. Maybe he should injure himself. Perhaps he could try jumping from a high place then he would be out of commission to heal his wounds. And surely by the time he heals, his birthday would have been long over.

With that plan in mind, Kanda started to think where he would jump from. He thought he might be able to use the trees in the forest, but he shook his head as he figured that a fall from that height might heal too quickly. His next option was the castle, if he jumped from the top, he’ll certainly be in bed long enough to past his birthday. The ebony haired teen surmised that that plan was perfect!

Kanda was almost convinced to grab that idea, almost. But his mind suddenly came up with an unpleasant disadvantage. If he were to stay in the infirmary for more than a day, then there was a chance that he’ll miss going on a mission. That is not something that Kanda would like. He was just the type to be devoted to one’s work.

Once again, Kanda was out of ideas. His patience finally snapped and he abruptly grabbed Mugen as he walked for the door. “That’s it! I’m going to stop that party no matter what!” He declared to himself. He’d finally concluded that his only option was to crash the celebration.

Yuu felt his head heat up with anger or maybe it was because he was thinking too much. He just decided to ignore it and seized the doorknob. But before he could open the door, a knock came. Kanda impulsively opened it, nearly forgetting about the tap he had just heard.

“Oh? That was fast!” Lavi blinked twice and stared at his friend. His hand was poised for a second knock, but obviously, that was no longer necessary. A grin quickly spread across the redhead’s face and he laughed. “I didn’t know you were that excited to see me, Yuu.”

A vein suddenly popped out from Kanda’s head, his fists shaking. Lavi noticed this and tried to look at the older one’s face.

“Yuu? What’s wrong?” Lavi blinked again. Kanda, not being able to hold his rage any longer, promptly smacked his knuckle on Lavi’s head, earning a pained cry from the Bookman apprentice.

“Oww…What was that for, Yuu?!” Lavi questioned as he tried to nurse the newborn bump on his head. The impact was really potent, not to mention painful. It made Lavi’s eye water a bit.

“Damn you! I wouldn’t even have known it was you! And stop calling me that!” Kanda yelled at Lavi’s face, glaring daggers at the same time. Lavi winced at his friend’s volume. He could have sworn he was seeing fire, but it must be his imagination.

“I was just joking! No need to be so violent, Yuu.” Lavi said, mock crying. He was still holding the bump on his head with his hands as he talked.

“Che.” Kanda closed his eyes indignantly and turned to leave, but not before closing his door. Lavi quickly followed his companion’s deliberate steps.

“Where are you going, Yuu?” Lavi asked curiously.

“None of your business.” Kanda didn’t even glance at Lavi when he replied.

“Aww, don’t be so cold.” Lavi told Yuu, pretending to be hurt. Of course, Kanda knew that it wasn’t real. “Well, what are you going to do then?” Lavi tried asking. This time, Kanda looked over his shoulder at Lavi, continuing his stride.

“I’m going to crash the party that they’re planning.” He said as if it was the most casual thing in the world. Lavi’s eye widened with alarm at the other’s answer. He grabbed hold of Kanda’s arm.

“Wait, Yuu! You can’t do that!” Lavi exclaimed, looking directly at Kanda’s eyes. The older teen snorted in reply.

“And why can’t I?” He challenged.

“Because everyone is doing their best to make that party grand for you. Even Allen is helping! You can’t just waste their efforts, yeah?” Lavi explained, hoping that Kanda would understand. He wasn’t sure if it was right to mention the white-haired boy’s name, yet he tried it anyway.

“Che.” Yuu’s usual response. He shoved Lavi’s hand off and started to walk again but Lavi caught him again, by the wrist.

“W-Wait, Yuu! Come with me!” Lavi then began to drag Kanda with a smile.

“Wha-“ Kanda found himself being pulled helplessly so he just allowed the slightly taller teen to lead him. He wasn’t hauled for long, because he was only dragged back into his room. Kanda blinked as Lavi closed the door behind him.

“I’ll show you something!” Lavi said excitedly, sitting himself on Kanda’s bed.

“Bastard, don’t sit on my bed and get out!” Kanda yelled, glaring at the redhead.

“Just wait.” Lavi replied, unfazed by Kanda’s show of anger. Kanda wasn’t a patient person in general, but he figured it wouldn’t hurt. He crossed his arms over his chest and wordlessly watched.

Lavi removed his ever present scarf first. Kanda didn’t really find anything strange at that action, but then, Lavi started to unzip his jacket. That was why Kanda panicked a bit and took a step towards the seated Bookman heir.

“Wh-What do you think you’re doing, you stupid rabbit?” Kanda shouted, quite flustered. Stopping his movements, the addressed teen looked up with confusion written on his face.

“Huh? I’m showing you my present.” Lavi tilted his head as he saw the swordsman’s flushed face. “What’s wrong, Yuu? Are you sick?” He raised his hand to touch Kanda’s forehead, but the latter pulled back jerkily.

“I’m fine, idiot!” Kanda turned his head to the side, trying to hide his evident blush. “Stop undressing!” He said without looking, his fists now shaking by his sides. He didn’t even know the reason why. Once again, Lavi blinked confusedly.

“Eh? Undressing?” Kanda felt his blush grow a shade darker at Lavi’s question.

‘This idiot…Don’t tell me he’s…’ Kanda dare not finish that thought. Sudden realization seemed to have suddenly hit Lavi, because he suddenly grinned.

“Yuu…Could it be…” Lavi started, pausing for a moment, before continuing. “You thought I was going to give myself to you as your birthday present?” After saying that, Lavi doubled over laughing. He barely got to finish his sentence. Now, how could you expect him to stop his laughter? Kanda’s face was almost as red as the shade of Lavi’s hair by now.

“Why would I think that?!” Kanda managed to keep himself from stuttering. He had half the mind to kill Lavi right then and there.

“Why are you blushing so hard then?” Lavi teased, grinning at the standing Exorcist.

“Shut up!” Kanda huffed and crossed his arms again. But the blush was still there. Lavi laughed again then continued to unzip his jacket. Kanda kept quiet this time and watched on. Lavi unzipped it halfway before reaching inside it. To Kanda, it looked like Lavi was reaching for something inside and he was. “What exactly are you doing?” Kanda asked, an eye twitching in impatience, by now, his blush had already disappeared.

“Got it!” Lavi extracted something. It was a roll of parchment. “Here you go!” He extended it to Kanda, but it wasn’t taken yet.

“What the hell is that?” Kanda glared.

“It’s my gift for you. C’mon take it!” Lavi urged, still waiting for Kanda to take the gift. Kanda eyed it for a few more seconds before taking it, making Lavi smile. He slowly opened it to look at the contents. At first, he thought it was some sort of letter or story, but what he saw surprised him a bit. It was a sketch of him, holding Mugen in his hand.

“What the..?” Kanda couldn’t figure what was the correct question to ask.

“It’s you.” Lavi smiled. “Is it nice?” Kanda lifted his gaze to Lavi when the latter had asked. He gave a hesitant nod in reply. “Haha, that’s good to know. I drew that, you know.” As he said this, Lavi found his friend looking at him weirdly. He felt a little conscious under Kanda’s speculative look. “What?!”

“…You…draw?” Kanda asked, his face showing utter disbelief. Lavi noticed that expression and pouted a little.

“Yes, I draw. Is it that hard to believe?”

“It is.”

“Hey, that’s mean.” Lavi grimaced a bit.

“I know.” Kanda replied matter-of-factly.

“But you like it anyway so it’s fine.” Lavi smiled.

“Che.” Kanda said as he kept the gift. “Where did that come from?”

“Huh? What do you mean?” Lavi inquired.

“Where did that idea come from?” Kanda rephrased his question.

“Oh? That. Well, I saw you training with Mugen and I thought you’d want to know what you looked like.” Lavi elucidated.

“I see. Since you gave it to me already, get out.” Kanda glowered at Lavi and pointed to the door.

“I still have one more present!” Lavi stood up and closed the distance between him and Kanda, pressing his lips to Yuu’s own. Kanda’s eyes widened a bit in surprise. He felt Lavi’s tongue nudge his lower lip, asking for entrance. But the birthday boy refused to open it. This made Lavi furrow his brows and pull back. “Open your mouth, Yuu.” Lavi said with a pout.

“Heh, can’t even open my mouth, baka usagi?” Kanda smirked as he teased the younger boy.

“Is that a challenge, Yuu-chan?” Kanda shrugged, choosing to ignore the nickname, for now.

“Who knows?” This made Lavi beam. So, Lavi kissed Kanda again with the intention of making him open his mouth. He nibbled on Kanda’s lower lip, but with it having no effect, he stopped. He’d already found out that using his tongue was futile. ‘I wonder what would work…’ Lavi thought without breaking the contact of lips to lips.

When Lavi was about to give up, an idea came to him and he smirked. Kanda felt this and quirked a brow while smirking in return. His smirk suddenly dropped when he felt Lavi poke his side. Kanda was about to ask what Lavi was planning. Before he could do that, Lavi had already inserted his tongue into Yuu’s mouth, though.

It was now a battle for dominance. Their tongues wrestled, neither one of the two wanting to lose. They went on for a few moments before Lavi abruptly pulled back and gasped.

“What’s wrong with you?” Kanda asked, crossing his arms again. Lavi panted for a few seconds, hands on knees.

“It’s so unfair.” Lavi said while looking down.

“What is?” Kanda stared at the panting boy, waiting for an answer.

“How come you can hold your breath for so long?” Lavi complained, half heartedly glaring at Kanda. The smirk quickly returned to Kanda’s lips at this.

“Heh, that only means I’m meant to be the dominant one.” Kanda stated as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Lavi furrowed his brows, standing to his full height and looking at Kanda straight in the eye.

“Of course you’re not!” Lavi argued, refusing to believe the other’s words. “I just need to learn how to hold my breath.” He defended, crossing his arms as well.

“Prove it then.” Lavi blushed as he heard Kanda’s words. Kanda’s smirk seems to just keep on growing and growing, making Lavi curse mentally. He unfolded his arms and looked away, his blush clearly seen by Kanda.

“S-Some other time…” Lavi blurted out almost nervously. He couldn’t possibly take the challenge now. He’ll only end up losing without making Kanda exert effort, that’s not something that Lavi would want.

“Why? Are you scared?” Kanda taunted. It’s a wonder why he hadn’t even kicked Lavi out yet. And it’s even more of a wonder that he’s allowing Lavi to kiss him, isn’t it? Maybe it’s only because it’s his birthday today or he just wants it. Only Kanda would know that, perhaps.

“I’m not scared!” Lavi exclaimed, his blush getting brighter by each passing second. “It’s just that…You’re party should be starting!” Lavi then grabbed his discarded scarf from the bed and wrapped it around his neck again, neglecting his half opened coat. He walked over to Kanda again when he was done. “Uhm…” He fidgeted a bit, thinking of what he would say.

“Happy Birthday, Yuu!” Lavi gave Kanda a quick peck on the lips and grasped his hand. He glanced at Kanda and smiled despite his blush. “Everyone’s waiting at the cafeteria, we should be going.” Kanda stared at Lavi for a moment.

“Fine.” He nodded and let Lavi pull him along.

“Hey, Yuu.” Lavi called as they stepped out of the room, making Kanda look up a little.

“What? And stop calling me that.” Kanda tried to glare a hole on Lavi’s back but to no avail. The cheerful teen was convinced that the other was listening.

“Next year, on your birthday…Would you want me as your birthday present?” Lavi only meant it as a joke but Kanda’s reply took him by surprise.

“Why not?” Kanda smirked when he saw Lavi’s wide eye and deepening blush. Lavi rapidly looked up front instead of Kanda. He just couldn’t bring himself to answer that so the two of them spent their time walking in silence. Unknown to Lavi, Kanda’s smirk had turned into a smile, a genuine one even if it was only a small one. He didn’t want anyone to notice, after all.

When they got to the cafeteria, everybody had gawked at surprise first before greeting Kanda a happy birthday. Lenalee even approached Kanda and had given him a present. The rest of the day was spent drinking, eating, conversing, and such other things. In conclusion, it was a good day. Even though it was noisy, much to the birthday boy’s displeasure, Kanda opted to tolerate it, eating his soba on one of the many tables. He heard that Jerry made it extra special for him today.

‘Maybe my birthday’s not so bad, after all…’ Kanda thought as his eyes landed on a certain red-haired teen. A smirk spread across his features once again, unnoticed by anyone. Yuu would definitely be looking forward for his next birthday, definitely.

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Author's notes: Bad? Nice? Out of character(yeah, I know, sadly)? I was in a little rush to finish this so I'm sorry for any mistakes up there. I'll fix it when I have the time. Please feel free to leave comments and constructive criticism! ^^

Thank you for reading!

bookman_junior @ 2008-04-27T22:41:00

2008-04-27T15:40:04Z

Hello! I haven't posted anything for awhile here now haven't I? This is the Second chapter for 'What Lies Underneath the Surface...'

Title: What Lies Underneath the Surface...
Rating: T
Character/ Pairing/s: Tyki/Lavi, Kanda/Allen (the 2nd pair seems to be stronger in this chap, oh well)
Summary: After his fateful meeting with Tyki, Lavi can't stop thinking about the enigmatic man. But even then, he still can't stop feeling loneliness as he sees his friends' love for each other grow. Lavi continues to ponder about his feelings for Kanda and Allen, but at the same time...he could be starting to fall for the man called Tyki Mikk.

The ranting shall now commence. Well, for everyone who's reading this...I'm really sorry that it took this long for me to update 'What Lies Underneath the Surface...' Y'see, there are reasons.

1) *the most troublesome of all* School. I posted the first chapter before school started. Ever since then, I haven't got much time. But I'm on vacation now! But still...anyway, 2) explains things the best...I think....

2) Setting school aside, I did have time every now and then (explaining the other fics I've been able to post) But alas, I can't think of anything appropriate to set as a continuation for it. *sad sigh* Inspiration on Tyki/Lavi has been really scarce for me. I mean, I try to watch the new episodes, then I look at the latest manga chapter, but still no inspiration comes. Especially after I read ch157. I saw Tyki with the long hair (that's still good) but then they show this girl (the blushy one), then Tyki said, "And who is this lovely lady?". So yeah, my inspiration has been dead for a long time.

3) Illness. I don't know why but I've been prone to sickness these days, especially cold and cough. I still have a cough but it's nothing severe *shrugs*.

I think that's the simplest explanation I could give you. I'm really sorry!!! I would like to specifically apologize to everyone who wanted the 2nd part. Please forgive me for taking so long and not coming up with something worth that long time.

Finally, I would like to thank all the patient people who actually took time to read my explanation (ranting). I do hope that someone would still feel like reading this second chapter!

It has already been a week since Lavi’s fateful meeting with Tyki, but he still can’t make up his mind. He continued to think and think, yet he still can’t decide. At the same time, he was berating himself for allowing the Noah to comfort him and kiss him of all the things possible. The Bookman-in-training wracked his brain for an explanation as to why he had submitted so easily to that man. No matter how long and hard he thought only two answers came up. First, the older man was far stronger than he was and he could have been killed if he didn’t surrender. And second, he felt that Tyki was a kindred spirit who knew how he must really feel. Of course, Lavi preferred the first answer. He absolutely refuses to believe that the second reason was true.

‘Arrgh!!! Damn it! There’s no way he can know how I feel! He doesn’t know me…’ Lavi was currently in his room, lying on his bed with the blanket covering his body. He buried his face in his pillow as he went deeper into thinking. After a moment, he lifted his face from the pillow and looked outside the window. The night was serene, just like the night of their meeting. The red-haired Bookman looked down again and covered the lower half of his face. ‘But, then again, maybe he…’ Lavi shook his head lightly. He was getting tired from all the confusion he was experiencing. For the past few days, all he had been thinking about was Tyki. It felt wrong on Lavi’s side but he can’t stop even if he tried countless times already. He remembered it so clearly, all the details.

Lavi gently pressed two fingers to his lips, reminiscing about the kiss Tyki had given him. He furiously blushed whenever he remembered it. It was more embarrassing than the time Krory had bitten him. He felt his face heat up again as he recalled how the taller man slipped his tongue into his mouth, exploring every fraction of his mouth which he could reach. Lavi slapped both of his cheeks softly to dismiss the unwanted thought, but it was useless.

‘Damn him…I’m so tired of thinking about this! It’s his fault that I’m stuck to this train of thought!’ Lavi rested his head in the soft pillow, looking up at the ceiling. He stared at it and lifted a hand.

“But why is it? Why do I think about it so much? Why do I think about him? Why..?” The puzzled boy whispered into the darkness of his room, never expecting an answer. Slowly, Lavi’s eye began to feel heavy. He tried to stop it from closing, but his exhaustion overpowered his will to stay awake. Being too tired, Lavi’s consciousness slowly faded as sleep took its place.

The next morning…

Lavi was not having a good morning. Sure, his sleep had been more peaceful compared to the previous nights, but his wake up call completely ruined his day. The Bookman heir had not expected himself to sleep in, because he was not physically tired and had slept early. But it seemed that mental stress could be as tiring as physical toil. Because of this, the old geezer, also known by the famous alias of Panda Jiji, promptly kicked him out of the bed to kiss the floor ‘good morning’.

Not only that, on his course to the floor, Lavi hit a spider web that had appeared some time ago due to the lack of cleaning. The sticky thing got entangled in his hair and he had a hard time trying to remove it.

After recovering from his fall, Lavi then got a mouthful of scolding from Bookman. Starting with something like…

“Why are you still here?!?! It’s already noon and you’re still lazing around here, idiot!” Bookman reprimanded. The lecture went on for a bit and Lavi tuned out more than half of the lecture. Thinking about it, Lavi recalled that he had been getting the same wake up call ever since the day he had seen Tyki in the forest.

‘Grrr…I’m thinking about that again..’

“Are you listening to me?!” The old man demanded. Lavi immediately snapped from his thoughts and gave his mentor a half-hearted grin.

“Yeah, I heard. I’m sorry, Gramps. I won’t do it again.” Lavi gave Bookman an apologetic smile, hoping that he would be forgiven. And it seemed to work.

Bookman only gave a sigh of resignation. His apprentice had been waking up late for the past whole week. He didn’t want the notion to repeat for another week, it was a waste of precious time. But then again, Lavi had been able to finish everything that Bookman had assigned him to do. So, Bookman just let it slip…for now. He looked at his student who was still sitting on the floor with the cobweb still clinging to his hair. He closed his eyes and proceeded to exit the room.

“I’ll let you go for now.” A wide smile quickly spread across Lavi’s face at Bookman’s words. Seeing this, Bookman continued, “But…” Lavi’s face became a little serious after that. His face showed a bit of anxiety mixed with a little fear. “You are to wake up early starting tomorrow.”

“Okay! I promise!” Lavi gave his word but he was not sure if he could do it. But who cares? As long as he can get away this time, it would be fine, right? He’d just have to worry about it the next day.

“You should fix yourself and get something to eat. “ Bookman said over his shoulder.

“Yeah, I will. Thanks, Gramps.” Lavi smiled as Bookman left the room and headed for the library. Lavi scratched the back of his head as he thought of how he would wake up in time tomorrow. He was getting tired of being regularly kicked out of bed. He gave out a sigh and started to stand up, but then he realized that the web was still in his hair.

“Ahh!!! Why did this have to be there when I fell?!” Lavi grunted to himself. So, he stood and got dressed. After dressing, with the web still intact, Lavi walked down the halls to the bathroom.

So, that’s the story of how Lavi’s wonderful day started. He was still dragging himself to the baths while trying to remove the accursed web from his hair. Because of that web, Lavi was not able to wear his bandanna and his hair was a total mess. The red headed Bookman was starting to get irritated, he had been trying again and again to remove that web, but it just seem to refuse to detach from his hair. That’s why he just gave up and muttered to himself saying ‘God must be punishing me…’

‘Why do I have this feeling that my day’s about to get worst..?’ Lavi set aside his premonition and just continued to walk. Once he reached the baths, he opened one of the faucets to wash his face. But instead of feeling gentle water pouring down from the faucet, Lavi was met with a strong current of water to the face. He took back a step from the sudden force and quickly closed the faucet. Lavi’s breath came in short ragged pants due to the cold water and the shock. His appearance now became even more messed up than it already was. His hair, as well as the web, was clinging to his face and he was now thoroughly soaked from head to the waist.

“Wh-What the hell was that about???” Lavi asked to no one in particular.

“Oh? Hello there, Lavi!” A voice greeted him from behind.

‘Th-That voice…it could only be…’

“KOMUI!!!” Lavi quickly turned around and pointed an accusing finger at the supervisor. Komui just gave him an innocent look. “You! What did you do with the faucet?!” Lavi asked the older man furiously.

“Relax, Lavi.” Komui started, raising his arms in defense. “I only made a little adjustment with it to help the people in the Order wake up! Isn’t it effective?” He finished excitedly. The Chinese man hid no pride from Lavi and started jumping around the bathroom happily. Filled with delight, Komui wasn’t able to notice Lavi’s growing irritation. It was too late when he noticed because he was already sent flying with the help of Lavi’s Innocence.

“It is effective but not appreciated, Komui.” Lavi said after Komui was gone. Even though Lavi was irritated at what Komui did with the water system, he was somehow thankful to it because when he tried to remove the web with a towel again, it easily came off. “Ah, finally.” Lavi sighed. ‘I just hope my day won’t be filled with any more mishaps…’

The cafeteria was Lavi’s next stop. Judging by the time, everyone must be finishing their lunch by now. That was a good thing considering that Lavi was still wet but he didn’t look disheveled anymore. His hunger was just too strong to ignore, so he didn’t bother to go back to his room to change.

As he entered the large dining hall, Lavi took note that only a few random finders were there. He went to the counter and was greeted by the friendly cook, Jerry.

“Hi , Lavi! I didn’t see you at breakfast, what happened?” Jerry asked with concern. Lavi just gave a weak smile.

“Haha, it’s a long story.” Jerry looked at him a little more closely and detected that he was wet.

“Oh my! You’re soaking wet! Are you alright?” Lavi nodded his head.

“Yeah, just hungry.”

“Are you sure?” Lavi nodded again, “Okay! What’s your order then?”

“Just fried rice and some dumplings.”

“Just a moment!” Jerry disappeared back into the kitchen. When he reappeared again, he held Lavi’s meal in a tray. “Here you go!”

“Thanks.” Lavi flashed another smile and looked around for a sit. That’s when he saw his white-haired friend. Allen was busily eating his favorite food and didn’t know that Lavi was also there.

Lavi grinned and walked over to Allen’s table with his small meal. He saw that Timcanpy was also eating with Allen. He laid his food down on the table and sat beside Allen.

“Good morning, moyashi!” Lavi teased the younger exorcist to get his attention. It worked like a charm,

“ICSH ARMMPH!!!” Allen replied with a slightly angered expression. His answer was muffled because of the food which filled his mouth. Lavi understood what Allen said but decided to feign ignorance.

“What did you say?” Lavi asked just for the fun of it. He chuckled as he watched the younger boy try to swallow his food quickly.

“I said ‘it’s Al-le-n’!” Allen said with a bit of indignation. Lavi just laughed again and nodded. “And besides, it’s not morning now. It’s noon.”

“Hehe, you’re right, Al-le-n.” Lavi imitated how Allen pronounced his name, syllable by syllable.

“Stop teasing me already.” Allen gave a small smile. It was a routine. Lavi would tease him every single time that they saw each other. Allen saw his friend looking around for a moment and got a bad feeling when Lavi turned to look at him again with an evil smirk plastered to his face.

“Sooooo, Allen, my friend. Tell me somethin’…” Lavi started dramatically with a tint of something sinister; he continued to give that smirk as he moved nearer to Allen.

“Y-Yes?” Allen backed away a little, wondering just what his friend was planning. Then he saw Lavi’s smirk turn into a wide grin.

“Where’s your knight in shining armor?” Lavi joked. He struggled to keep his laughter to himself as he saw the younger boy’s eyes widen comically. He was still feeling left out from Allen and Yuu, but he loved to tease the white haired boy because it helped him convince himself that he got over his love for them already. That’s the why he could still cope with his loneliness.

“Wh-What are you talking about?!?!” Allen almost yelled. He knew what Lavi meant but he was too embarrassed to admit it. He felt his face heat up like a furnace.

“Oh? Is bean sprout trying to act clueless today?”

“It’s Allen!”

“I know, I know. It just suits ya, besides, its fun! So, where is he?” Allen just looked away, crossing his arms with Timcanpy resting on his head.

“He’s away on a mission…” Allen mumbled. Lavi wouldn’t have caught it if his hearing wasn’t good.

“Really?!?!” Lavi started with surprise. The two were inseparable ever since they got together so it was really something incredible to hear. “Komui must have had a really hard time, yeah?”

“He did. I had to help convince Kanda, too. He’s just too stubborn at times.” Allen huffed a bit. The red headed Bookman gave a small smile at Allen’s words. The cursed boy still called his lover ‘Kanda’ even though they were already so close.

“C’mon, tell me what happened!” Curiosity is just something that Lavi couldn’t resist. Allen eyed him for a moment and sighed.

“I guess it wouldn’t hurt to tell you…” He gave another sigh before continuing, “Komui was really planning to send Kanda off alone. But then Kanda became worried that no one would look after me. And you know I didn’t need anyone to look after me, right?!?!” Lavi jerked when Allen abruptly stood with an indignant look and his voice suddenly rose. A vein was visible on his forehead and left hand was fisted while the other had slammed the faultless table. Allen noticed that and coughed giving a small apology while he sat down again, regaining most of his composure.

“I’m sorry. I got carried away…” Lavi waved his hand slightly and smiled.

“I-It’s fine. No need t’worry. Go on.”

“As I was saying, Kanda was worried about me. So he somewhat refused to go on that mission. Komui called me to help him convince Kanda, after trying to talk him into it. I tried to persuade him and it did work. But he just had to place one condition.”

“A condition?” Lavi noted Allen’s exasperation. The boy just gave him a nod.

“Yes. He said that he would go on that mission in one condition. He said, ‘Fine. I’ll go, but on one condition’. Then, he glared at Komui like this.” Allen tried to imitate the swordsman’s glare. “And he said, ‘You must not send moyashi on any mission while I’m not around, got it?’”

“I see.” Lavi placed a hand on his chin as he pondered about what Allen had stated to him. A chuckle came from him, earning Lavi a stare from his companion.

“What?” Allen glared when he saw Lavi laugh harder.

“Hahaha, it’s nothing. I just thought that was so like Yu.”

“I couldn’t agree mo-“ Allen was interrupted by a loud growling sound. He looked confused for a while, wondering what it was. But when he saw Lavi’s cheeks redden, he immediately understood and gave a little laugh. “Sorry, I forgot you haven’t eaten, yet.”

“It’s alright. I don’t really mind.” Lavi scratched his cheek with a finger. That’s when Allen noticed that Lavi was wet.

“Lavi! What happened to you?! You’re drenched!” Lavi just stared at him like he didn’t know what Allen was saying.

“Ah! This? It’s the faucet’s fault.” He grinned ‘More like Komui’s fault.’

“Shouldn’t you change first?” Allen asked with worry. Lavi just shook his head.

“I’m going to be just fine. So stop worrying! Yuu will kill me if he found out I made ya worry.” Lavi lightly poked Allen in the forehead. The younger Exorcist winced at the contact and held a hand to his forehead.

“Just be sure to change right away, okay?”

“Yes, mom, whatever you say~.” A hit to the head was Lavi’s reward for that. After giving the older teen a scornful look, Allen stood up.

“Huh? Where are ya going, Allen?” Lavi looked at Allen with confusion.

“I’m done eating so I’ll go back to my room for a while.” Allen gave a little smile as he said this and left the table. “Oh, enjoy your meal, by the way.” He said before completely walking out of earshot.

Lavi smiled to himself fondly. ‘Heh, it’s been such a long time, Allen…since you talked with me like that…I missed it…hmm, I wonder if it’s because he’s not with Yuu.’ Dispelling that thought, Lavi realized just how hungry he was and started to eat.

Lavi was able to quickly finish his meal and decided to go back to the library. He was already out of the cafeteria when he saw a familiar figure. He immediately recognized the person and ran up to him excitedly.

“Yu~!” He exclaimed before slinging a friendly arm across the swordsman’s shoulders. The next thing Lavi knew was that a sword was threateningly near his throat and that two very pissed eyes were glaring holes into his head.

“Don’t call me by my first name or else I’ll kill you.” Kanda warned menacingly. Lavi just laughed it off as if he didn’t hear the threat at all. But who can blame him? He’d heard the same threat a lot of times before and he was still alive. “And don’t touch me, you’ll get me wet.”

“Haha, don’t be so cold, Yuu. I haven’t seen ya for 5 days, 16 hours, 23 minutes, and 15.8 seconds.” Lavi pushed Mugen’s blade aside with a finger so he could talk more freely. “Is it so wrong to greet ya?” Lavi teased with a wide grin on his face. And just to add gas to the fire, Lavi slung his arm around Kanda’s shoulder again. A little bit of water got sipped into Kanda’s clothing which ticked him even more.

“Stop touching me!” Kanda hollered, swinging Mugen at Lavi’s neck. Because of experience, the eye-patched Bookman was able to dodge the sharp blade.

“Whoa! Put that away! You might slice someone!” Lavi raised both of his hands up in the international peace sign, taking a step back.

“That is exactly what I’m trying to do.” Kanda glowered.

“You’re no fun, Yuu. I was just joking around.” Lavi grinned. Kanda seemed to have calmed down a bit and lowered his sword. He gave a sigh before standing straight again. ‘He must be spent because of that mission he just had.’ Lavi mused.

“Che. I don’t have time for your stupid jokes, baka usagi.” Kanda sheathed his katana and impatiently treaded away from the Bookman heir. Lavi refused to back down and followed the stoic teen not so quietly.

“Y’know what, Yuu, Allen missed ya so much.” Lavi started. He looked at the older teen in front of him, waiting for some kind of reaction. Kanda flinched and stopped in his tracks for a second before moving again. It was all the reaction that Lavi needed. He smiled to himself again. Sometimes, he felt really jealous of those two. They were always worrying and thinking of each other whether they were together or apart. “Ya should go to him right away, Yuu. I’m sure he’ll be overwhelmed with joy.”

Kanda didn’t say anything but Lavi completely knew what was on the other’s mind. He might be trying to act cool and tough, but inside, Kanda missed Allen a great deal and was definitely dying to see him again. Lavi decided to speak up again to encourage Kanda to see Allen as soon as possible.

“I bet Allen hasn’t been sleeping well these past few days.” Lavi saw the other exorcist’s head jerk up at his sentence.

“What?” Kanda asked with a voice tinted with concern. He slowly turned around to face Lavi.

“I’ve seen him around when y’were on your mission. He had dark rings under his eyes. B’sides that, he wasn’t as energetic as usual. Allen’s really worried about ya. Y’do know that, yeah?” Kanda gritted his teeth before he turned his back on Lavi and proceeded to walk into Komui’s office. Lavi lingered at the front of the door and stared at it for a while. ‘Those two…they try to act normal but I can clearly see their trepidation. Hehe, they’re really stubborn.’ Lavi was snapped away from his thoughts when the door suddenly opened before him. He quickly stepped back to avoid getting hit but he lost his balance and ended up falling flat on his butt. “Oww…”

“Get in.” Kanda ordered, standing over the redhead. Lavi blinked up at Kanda confusedly and uttered a ‘wha-‘, much to the older one’s annoyance. “I said ‘get in’.” He repeated before slamming the door shut. It finally registered in Lavi’s brain and he stood up gingerly, dusting himself. ‘I wonder if it’s a mission…’

When Lavi entered the office, the first thing he saw was a pile of papers, of course. The next thing that caught his attention was Komui. The supervisor’s head and left hand was wrapped in bandages and bruises scattered across his face. Lavi paled when he saw this and looked dejectedly at the floor. ‘Shit, I must have sent him too far.’

“Lavi! How are you~?” Komui asked almost too cheerfully. That is, too cheerfully for Lavi’s liking.

“I-I’m fine..! Uhm, thanks for askin’..?” Lavi smiled shakily. Komui smiled right back, intensely, as if asking for something. The young Bookman apprentice tried to ignore it, but it was too strong so he gave in. “Fine, fine. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to send ya…that far or hit ya that hard this morning. I was shocked, so, sorry.” Lavi just wished he will be forgiven without any consequences. Everyone knew how scary Komui Lee can be.

“Apology accepted.” Lavi closed his eye and prepared himself for a punishment. “I called both of you here for a mission…” Lavi quickly opened his eye in surprise.

“Wait! Th-That’s it? Ya ain’t angry or anything???” Lavi inquired the Chinese. The man just looked at him for a moment and spoke.

“Now, why would I do that?”

“But this morning I- Well, y’know!” Lavi stuttered helplessly.

“Don’t think about it! I’ll be okay! It was my fault to start with.” Lavi stared at Komui as if he’d grown a second head. He was grateful and all but it felt, well, wrong. But he just let it slide since he will benefit from it any way. “As I was saying, I called you two for a mission. Allen will also join you but I’ll just explain it to you since we lack some time.”

Komui pulled out a map and pointed at a certain location in Spain. “We have been informed that there had been an unusual event happening here. The Finders told us that some people from Sta. Cecilia suddenly got animal aspects such as cat ears and tails along with that particular animal’s personality. This happened when they entered a cave not far from their village. No one knows how it happened but we are told that some residents were able to turn back to normal after a few days while the others still have animal aspects. That’s why I’m sending the three of you there to investigate it.”

“Hn.”

“So, we leave immediately?”

“Yes.” Komui nodded.

“Yuu, ya should go and tell Allen about the mission so we could set off.” Lavi smiled warmly at Kanda, knowing full well how much the couple longed to see each other again. Kanda stood without saying anything and left the office.

Right after Kanda left, Lavi faced Komui. “I’ll go and get changed first and tell Gramps that I’ll be going on a mission.” After saying that, Lavi quickly marched out the door. He made it to his room in short time and hastily changed his clothes but not before drying himself. The next thing he did was go to the library to look for his mentor, who he almost instantaneously found.

“Gramps!” Lavi called. Bookman glanced at him in a split second before going back to what he was doing.

“What is it this time, Lavi?” He asked wearily.

“Komui’s sending me on a mission with Yuu and Allen.”

“I see. You’ll have to do your log when you get back then.” Lavi’s face turned sour at the mention of his work. None the less, he grinned and started to head out of the library.

“See ya, Gramps!” Lavi didn’t reply to Bookman’s words but he knew that the old man knew he was trying to avoid that topic. Before Bookman could say anything else, his apprentice was already out of sight.

“That idiot…” Bookman muttered, shaking his head tiredly.

zzzz

Lavi watched his companions with a beam on his face. Yuu and Allen were currently sleeping beside each other. Allen’s head was resting on Kanda’s shoulder with a smile gracing his pale features. Kanda, on the other hand, leaned his head on Allen’s head, resting from his previous mission with a relaxed expression. Lavi closed his eye and contemplated the two sleeping beauties, ahem.

‘They’re so happy together. They can’t even rest properly without being together now.’ Lavi chuckled to himself softly, afraid of disturbing the couple from their slumber. But his smile dropped as he remembered his own feelings. He let out a sigh of regret.

‘Here I go again with this feeling. So…I still do feel something for them. I shouldn’t be jealous. Happiness, that’s what I should be feeling…But why do I find that so hard?’ Lavi felt a tear slowly make its way down his cheek. His eye widened at this and he quickly wiped it away, trying to regain his composure. Yet, it seemed that the tears won’t stop from coming just yet. Lavi was really thankful that they were able to get a private room on this train and that Kanda and Allen were deeply sleeping. He wouldn’t want anyone to see him crying.

The troubled young man looked forlornly outside the window, letting his tears fall silently. ‘I do feel happy for them. I’ve told that to myself several times already. And I really am because I love both of them. But…when I’m left with nothing to do but think…I feel this…this envy, no, I don’t think it’s just that, loneliness is…what I really feel…’ Suddenly, an image of a certain Noah flashed through Lavi’s mind like lightning. ‘W-Why did I just think of him..?’ Lavi felt a blush starting to rise to his cheeks. He tried to make it go away by slapping himself lightly, but it didn’t work. It just made his blush more evident. ‘I’m such an idiot! But really, why do I keep on thinking about him? Is it because…he claimed to know what I feel? Or is it because we’re-we’re…the same…?’

A sigh escaped Lavi’s pale lips. He couldn’t bring himself to believe that just yet. Not now, but who knows? He might, sooner or later.

Lavi faced the sleeping lovers once again. He had an apologetic smile on his face and he whispered, “I’m sorry…for feeling like this.” The red haired teen closed hi eye and stared at the landscape they were passing by. Unexpectedly, a yawn came from Lavi.

‘Now that I think of it, I haven’t been sleeping well either. Maybe I should sleep, too.’ So, Lavi shifted a little in his seat to make himself comfortable. Once he got settled, he gave the sky one last fleeting look and thought, ‘I wonder…if he’s thinking about me, too…’

With that final thought, Lavi’s eye fluttered close and a dreamless slumber enveloped him in its warm embrace.

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Author's notes: So...How was it? Horrible?...I do hope it's not that bad...is it? *sigh* Sorry for the OOC again. Please do tell me your honest opinions, I would accept itno matter how harsh it may be. Thank you very much for reading!

P.S.: For anyone that's curious, chapter three would be in Tyki's point of view. I'm planning on alternating the point of view between those two but I do take opinions. And, CHAPTER 1 IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION ('cause I'm starting to dislike it whenever I read it)!

Here comes questions!!! First, I'd like to ask this, it's been bugging me for awhile so...Do you think Tyki's a virgin? I know it's a nonsense question but..! I can't help it..! I'm just so curious about it! And the other one...If I put smut in one of the chapters, should I change the rating to M? Just wonderin'....

Oh, no!

2007-12-15T08:47:38Z

AAAHHH!!! I just noticed that I posted my fic TWICE! Please just ignore the first one. (-_-;;)

bookman_junior @ 2007-12-15T16:13:00

2007-12-15T08:24:53Z

Christmas break is almost here! I just have to wait for a week.

Anyway, I just wrote a fanfic and thought I'd share. So, here it is.

Title: How perverted can 'Yuu' get?
Characters: Allen, Lavi, and Kanda
Rating: T (to be safe)
Warnings: Some things are impled.
Summary: Let's see how perverted Kanda really is. Who knows? You might also find out how perverted you are.

It was just another normal day at the Black Order and everyone was going on with their respective lives. Kanda Yuu was just walking down the halls, on his way to his room to rest for a little while since he only came back from a mission an hour or so ago. But as he passed a certain Bookman-in-training’s room, he heard a voice…

“Ah!”

“Stop squirming, Lavi!”

…make that two. Kanda wasn’t one to mind people’s businesses, yet he couldn’t resist the urge to stop and listen in order to find out what the other two were doing.

“I can’t help it! It hurts!”

“Stop whining. You’ll get used to it.”

“It still feels weird to do this, though. Since, you should normally do this with girls…”

“I don’t think it’s that weird.”

“Well, that’s because you’re not the one in my position, Allen Walker.”

‘What are those two doing?’ The swordsman mentally asked himself.

“Fine, you could do it to me next time.”

“That’s okay, then. But…y’know, Allen, I think I respect girls more now. ”

“Hm? Why is that?”

“I mean they can endure doing this. I mean, almost all of them does this, yeah?”

“I guess you’re right. Even Lenalee does it.”

‘Lenalee?! Are those idiots seriously-?’ Kanda was starting to imagine what Allen and Lavi were currently doing behind that door, and those weren’t pure thoughts.

“Ow! Ahh…Can’t you be gentler, Allen?”

“Sorry, I can’t do that.”

“Ah! Why not?”

“Come on, Lavi. Do you think what I’m doing is easy?”

“…no.”

“Then just keep quiet.”

‘Th-They can’t possibly be doing that…right?’ The ebony-haired teen furrowed his eyebrows in deep thought. His grip on Mugen unconsciously tightened.

“Oww!!! I change my mind! I don’t want to do this any more!”

“But we’ve already gone this far. We can’t stop now!”

“I don’t care! It hurts too much! Just remove it!”

‘Remove…it? What’s it?’ Kanda tried to stop himself from thinking that it was that particular part of his body.

“No way. Not when we’re this close to finishing.”

“But you’re doing it too harshly!”

“I said that you’ll get used to it, didn’t I? And besides, I did tell you that it might hurt a little.”

“You call this a little?! The way you’re doing it is too painful.”

“That’s because it’s your first time.”

“It’s not. I used to do it to myself and it didn’t hurt at all.”

“Lavi, the way you do it and the way I’m doing it right now is completely different.”

“How so?”

“First, I’m the one who’s doing it. Second, the way I do it is more intricate than the way you do it, I’m sure. Third, I have more experience than you.”

“Experience?”

“Yes. That’s what you get when you train under Cross Marian.”

“Oh, I see. So you mean you’ve done this several times?”

“Of course. More often than not, I was doing it to older women. But there were also a few gays and they all said I was good.”

“That explains why you’re so skilled at it. (Just what kind training did this kid really have?)”

‘…His General is worse than mine.’ The samurai felt a split second of pity for the younger boy. And that was it, a split second.

“Oww…” Kanda can hint that Lavi’s voice was had become muffled.

“Are you biting your lip? Oh no, you’re not going to cry, are you?”

“Sh-Shut up! I’m not going to cry just because of this. If girls can take it, so can I!”

“That’s good to hear.”

“Owowow! S-Stop pulling so hard!”

“I’m sorry. I’ll just try to do it more lightly. There. Is that okay with you?”

“I guess…”

“I’m almost done.” Kanda heard a little shuffling sound from inside.

“Wait. No…No way! You’re not really going to use that on me, are you?! “

“Stop struggling, Lavi. It would be just fine.”

“Ah! Nooo!!! Let me go! No! Wait! Don’t!!! Stop!!!”

Kanda can’t take it anymore. He just wanted to know what the hell was really happening inside and what made Lavi panic like that. So, without any hesitation, the normally stoic teen pulled the door open with force. And behold! What he saw was unexpected; the two younger boys were on the floor. Allen was on top of Lavi (who was still struggling) and he was trying to tie a frilly, pink ribbon to Lavi’s hair which was now tied in a rather complicated way. Lavi then noticed his ‘best friend’ standing there with an unreadable expression.

“Yuu! You’re back! Thank goodness! Please help me!!!” The red-head begged of the long-haired teen. But Kanda couldn’t move an inch. He felt his brain shut down the moment he saw what the two were actually doing, although he wasn’t sure whether it was due to shock or relief.

“Yuu?” Lavi took note of his friend’s unresponsiveness.

“What’s the matter, Kanda?” Allen asked not because he was concerned but for the sake of being polite. Then Lavi, seemingly forgetting his situation, cracked a joke.

“Uh-huh! I know! You want to get your hair tied by Allen, too, right, Yuu?” Lavi grinned up at the stupefied teen.

Kanda still stood there with no reaction whatsoever. He could only stare into nothing. His brain couldn’t take the shock he just experienced. There he was thinking that the two were actually doing something while in fact, Allen was only tying Lavi’s messy hair.

The poor young man couldn’t take the shock any longer. His eyes rolled back into his head and he fell down with a loud THUD! Lavi became alarmed and quickly pushed Allen off and ran to Yuu’s side. Allen quickly followed wondering what was wrong with the other exorcist.

“Yuu! Yuu! C’mon! Wake up! Get a hold of yourself!” Lavi shouted and frantically shook Kanda to try and wake him. The rd-head even tried slapping him but Kanda remained unconscious. Lavi then turned to Allen. “Did we do something that made him like this?” The Bookman heir looked inquisitively at the cursed boy.

“Who knows?” Allen shrugged. “Maybe he was so amazed at my skill with fixing hairs that he just fainted.” The white-haired boy proclaimed with pride.

“Well, we don’t know about that. Anyway, let’s just get him to the infirmary.” Lavi proceeded to remove the several braids and clips that Allen had placed in his hair. He can’t possibly walk around the Order with those things.

“Ah! Why did you remove it?!?! I made it so carefully and it looked so nice, too! What a waste.” Allen made a mock sad face.

“Give me a break, Allen. Do you really think I’ll go outside my room with my hair tied like that?” Lavi looked at Allen wearily. His companion nodded his head enthusiastically as a response to his rhetorical question. The green-eyed Bookman just sweat-dropped and gave a sigh as he held his head. Deciding it would be better, Lavi just ignored the other’s answer and said, “Let’s just get Yuu to the infirmary, okay? And not ‘you’, I mean ‘Yuu’. Help me put him on my back”

Allen picked Kanda up and placed him on Lavi’s back. After that, the three of them went on their way to the infirmary with a few people looking at them wondering why Kanda was unconscious or why Lavi was giving him a piggy-back ride. But either way, the trio continued. When they finally reached their destination, Lavi gently laid Kanda on one of the beds as the head nurse instructed. He and Allen were told that the Japanese exorcist was fine but quite tired and needed some rest. So, they left Yuu there to give him the sleep he needed. But what they didn’t know, what Kanda was having was far from rest, because in his sleep, he was haunted by nightmares, nightmares that consisted of a particular cursed exorcist and a certain eye-patched Bookman.

And ever since that day, Kanda Yuu learned three new things. 1) Avoid eavesdropping on conversations of other people. 2) Never to let Allen touch his hair (or else it would be tied up like Lavi’s).

And last but not the least, Kanda discovered just how perverted he actually is.

Author’s notes: Sorry if I made Kanda quite OOC. I couldn’t help it! This fic just appeared in my head a few days ago and I felt the need to write it. Also, sorry for making hair-tying sound so complicated and painful. (^-^;;) Please feel free to give any concrit or comment you have!

*About Allen’s line:’ More often than not, I was doing it to older women. But there were also a few gays and they all said I was good’ Allen meant that he fixed older women’s hair. Sometimes, gays with long hair would let him do their hairs, too. Plus, he always did a good job.

bookman_junior @ 2007-12-15T15:49:00

2007-12-15T08:12:33Z

Christman break is almost here! I just have to wait for a week.

Anyway, I just wrote a new fanfic and thought I'd share. So, here it is.

Title: How perverted can 'Yuu' get?
Characters: Allen, Lavi, and Kanda
Rating: T (for safety)
Warnings: Some things are implied.
Summary: Let's see how perverted Kanda is. And, who knows, you might also find out how perverted you are.

“Ah!”

“Stop squirming, Lavi!”

…make that two. Kanda wasn’t one to mind people’s businesses, yet he couldn’t resist the urge to stop and listen in order to find out what the other two were doing.

“I can’t help it! It hurts!”

“Stop whining. You’ll get used to it.”

“It still feels weird to do this, though. Since, you should normally do this with girls…”

“I don’t think it’s that weird.”

“Well, that’s because you’re not the one in my position, Allen Walker.”

‘What are those two doing?’ The swordsman mentally asked himself.

“Fine, you could do it to me next time.”

“That’s okay, then. But…y’know, Allen, I think I respect girls more now. ”

“Hm? Why is that?”

“I mean they can endure doing this. I mean, almost all of them does this, yeah?”

“I guess you’re right. Even Lenalee does it.”

‘Lenalee?! Are those idiots seriously-?’ Kanda was starting to imagine what Allen and Lavi were currently doing behind that door, and those weren’t pure thoughts.

“Ow! Ahh…Can’t you be gentler, Allen?”

“Sorry, I can’t do that.”

“Ah! Why not?”

“Come on, Lavi. Do you think what I’m doing is easy?”

“…no.”

“Then just keep quiet.”

‘Th-They can’t possibly be doing that…right?’ The ebony-haired teen furrowed his eyebrows in deep thought. His grip on Mugen unconsciously tightened.

“Oww!!! I change my mind! I don’t want to do this any more!”

“But we’ve already gone this far. We can’t stop now!”

“I don’t care! It hurts too much! Just remove it!”

‘Remove…it? What’s it?’ Kanda tried to stop himself from thinking that it was that particular part of his body.

“No way. Not when we’re this close to finishing.”

“But you’re doing it too harshly!”

“I said that you’ll get used to it, didn’t I? And besides, I did tell you that it might hurt a little.”

“You call this a little?! The way you’re doing it is too painful.”

“That’s because it’s your first time.”

“It’s not. I used to do it to myself and it didn’t hurt at all.”

“Lavi, the way you do it and the way I’m doing it right now is completely different.”

“How so?”

“First, I’m the one who’s doing it. Second, the way I do it is more intricate than the way you do it, I’m sure. Third, I have more experience than you.”

“Experience?”

“Yes. That’s what you get when you train under Cross Marian.”

“Oh, I see. So you mean you’ve done this several times?”

“Of course. More often than not, I was doing it to older women. But there were also a few gays and they all said I was good.”

“That explains why you’re so skilled at it. (Just what kind training did this kid really have?)”

‘…His General is worse than mine.’ The samurai felt a split second of pity for the younger boy. And that was it, a split second.

“Oww…” Kanda can hint that Lavi’s voice was had become muffled.

“Are you biting your lip? Oh no, you’re not going to cry, are you?”

“Sh-Shut up! I’m not going to cry just because of this. If girls can take it, so can I!”

“That’s good to hear.”

“Owowow! S-Stop pulling so hard!”

“I’m sorry. I’ll just try to do it more lightly. There. Is that okay with you?”

“I guess…”

“I’m almost done.” Kanda heard a little shuffling sound from inside.

“Wait. No…No way! You’re not really going to use that on me, are you?! “

“Stop struggling, Lavi. It would be just fine.”

“Ah! Nooo!!! Let me go! No! Wait! Don’t!!! Stop!!!”

“Yuu?” Lavi took note of his friend’s unresponsiveness.

“What’s the matter, Kanda?” Allen asked not because he was concerned but for the sake of being polite. Then Lavi, seemingly forgetting his situation, cracked a joke.

“Uh-huh! I know! You want to get your hair tied by Allen, too, right, Yuu?” Lavi grinned up at the stupefied teen.

The poor young man couldn’t take the shock anymore. His eyes rolled back into his head and he fell down with a loud THUD! Lavi became alarmed and quickly pushed Allen off and ran to Yuu’s side. Allen quickly followed wondering what was wrong with the other exorcist.

“Who knows?” Allen shrugged. “Maybe he was so amazed at my skill with fixing hairs that he just fainted.” The white-haired boy proclaimed with pride.

“Ah! Why did you remove it?!?! I made it so carefully and it looked so nice, too! What a waste.” Allen made a mock sad face.

And last but not the least, Kanda discovered just how perverted his mind can be.

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Author’s notes: Sorry if I made Kanda quite OOC. I couldn’t help it! This fic just appeared in my head a few days ago and I felt the need to write it. Please tell me what you think. Concrits are always welcome!

And ever since that day, Kanda Yuu learned three new things. 1) Avoid eavesdropping on conversations of other people. 2) Never to let Allen touch his hair (or else it would be tied up like Lavi’s).

After a hundred years...well, not really...

2007-09-12T15:27:56Z

Yo! I finally got to write and post something! This months have been really busy and so on and so forth. I won't spam with my ranting too much.

Anyways, here's the fanfic I made!

Title: Nightmare
Character/s: Lavi
Disclaimer: I do not own D.Gray-man. Hoshino-san does.
Note: I tried to make this a bit sad but I'm not sure if I was able to do it right. I'll just leave it up to you to decide.

Advenced author's notes: Here's the fic. I hope you enjoy it!

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I am not certain whether I am dreaming or wrapped in an illusion caused by my own mind. Everything around me looked and felt so real, yet at the same time, all of it seems like a mirage. I can’t distinguish which things really exist or not.

As I walk down this deserted path, I take time to look at my surroundings. Everywhere I lay my eye upon, all I see was destruction. I could tell that this place that I am threading upon was once a prosperous city filled with bountiful resources and perhaps, just perhaps, it also housed hundreds of happy families that lived harmoniously with each other. But all that was left now were rubbles of that proud city. Its dwellers were now mere corpses that lay seemingly on every available space in this forlorn land. Some of the carcasses were brutally crushed under the heavy rubbles to the point that you can’t tell that they were once living beings, some were strewn about that it seemed that they had been blown away before they even met their death and some were mercilessly mutilated that you can’t even begin to try and guess which body part goes with another.

Corpses and blood.

That was all that covered the whole area. The atmosphere felt heavy because of the blood of both animals and humans alike. The rotting smell of the corpses was almost suffocating me. I don’t think that anyone could have survived this cruel fate that had befallen on this pitiful place. It wasn’t only the men that were killed but also the old people, women, children and even infants were all violently murdered. Not even one had been spared. This was the picture of a massacre filled with lust for bloodshed. However, this was not all of it. What I am portraying is but a small fragment of the real suffering and pain that had come to pass.

But even as I saw this, I was completely unfazed. You might think I’m heartless because of what I had said, but, honestly speaking, I think you might be right. Ever since I took the oath as Bookman’s heir, I had already discarded all of my humanity. My name, my emotions, and my heart- I gave up everything to walk this lone path.

A Bookman has no need for a heart.

Its meaning is very simple to understand. Although, I think normal people will consider this a very difficult task. I’m not one of those normal people. That’s why I have found it extremely easy to do. But….once I set foot in the Black Order as “Lavi”, everything changed. I was only supposed to be acting….I was only supposed to watch….Nothing else. But…..I couldn’t prevent myself from being attached to those people. Allen, Yuu, Lenalee, and everyone else, I can’t stop myself from caring for them. It……It scared me…I didn’t know…when I actually stopped my act. My smiles that were only supposed to be a mask, started to become genuine.

I shook my head to stop any further thoughts that threatened to surface. I continued to walk aimlessly around this world that I am currently on. As to why I’m having this dream, I know not. Maybe it was my inner turmoil that was causing this. But I don’t really have a single clue.

Once again, I am pulled from my thoughts. But this time, it wasn’t I that did it. What got my attention was a small muffled sound. It sounds like that whatever or whoever was making that tiny noise was quite nearby. I started to follow the sound out of curiosity and at the same time in wonder of how could anything survive the massacre I saw with my own eye.

Slowly, as I moved on forward, the sound grew louder and louder; I then identified it as a crying voice of a young, petite child. I have yet to see this child but….something about the voice….seems awfully familiar. My strides became hastier as I became sure where the source of the sobbing was. Behind a large debris, I found the crying child kneeling and trembling helplessly.

What I saw greatly surprised me. Dare I say that I was extremely shocked? The cause of my shock was this child. This child….that was crying so helplessly…was no other than me. I cannot say what I am currently feeling. Is this dream actually a part of my memory or is it simply a dream that conveys my hidden emotions? I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion….I don’t understand what was happening at all.

I then noticed that the younger me was kneeling in front of someone. But even though there is only a little distance between me and that person, I cannot see his face. I wasn’t even sure if the person was a male or female so I will just refer to that person as a male. The fact that I cannot see the features of the prone person only added up to my confusion. Then the younger me spoke in an unsure, shaky voice that can barely be heard.

“Please…..I-I…I don’t want to be left alone…Please don’t leave me….I-I’m scared…Please…” My younger self begged. His voice was filled with so much anguish that shouldn’t be possessed by someone as young as he was. It gave my heart a painful twinge despite the years I’ve spent training as a Bookman. He clutched the person’s arm desperately as if he’ll die if he let go. The unknown person didn’t have the strength to speak anymore; he just looked at the boy and with all the strength he had left, he lifted up one of his hands and placed it gently on top of the crying boy’s head as if trying to say “It’s alright, I won’t leave you.” But I was well aware that it was a lie. And I also knew that my other self, the small child, was also aware of that.

Who was this person? Why was I, the younger me, crying? I don’t understand at all. Everything is just so confusing. I don’t know this person, right? But….why do I feel this pain in my chest? It hurts…Could it possibly be…that this person was someone close to my heart?

I placed my attention on the dying person again, but I still cannot see his features. I saw his hand start to weaken then it just went limp. The child already knew what had happened and he clutched the person’s arm even harder. His only visible eye was overflowing with fresh tears as he looked at the person that I assumed was someone very close. Violent tremors wracked the boy’s frame as he desperately tried to bottle up his emotions. He was biting his lower lip to stop himself from making any sound and he was clenching his fists so hard that it was turning white. Despite his efforts in suppressing his grief, the child let out a sorrowful cry that was filled with so much sadness and pain that if you heard it, your heart might be broken and it is possible that tears will also fall from your eyes.

Suddenly, the rain started to descend on us as though the heavens above shared the boy’s deep suffering. Even though I was raised to be the next Bookman, I couldn’t help but feel sorrow myself. I can’t understand why I was feeling that way. The feeling of losing someone…The feeling the other me was experiencing right now….I didn’t know why I was feeling it, too….

I tried to touch the child, but I had no idea whether it was to comfort the child or just to confirm his existence. But instead of touching the weeping boy, I ended up touching nothing but thin air. I tried again but it only had the same result as my first try. Could it be that I am only a phantom here? It is the most logical explanation I could think of right now. But, then again, why was the rain clinging to me?

I was taken slightly aback when I felt something warm run down my cheek. I covered my face from the rain then I tried to touch my face and was surprised at what I had touched. It couldn’t be…..Tears…? Why…? I have no reason to grieve as well, right? So, why was I?

The answer registered in my mind quite quickly and I felt foolish for not realizing it any sooner. The child, who was a part of me, was actually only showing me what I truly felt deep inside the locked chambers of my heart. That was one thing that I had a conclusion of. But, who was this person…? This person that I feel so strongly for…? I….I can’t tell who it was…!

I only continued to stand quietly behind the child and the faceless person, at loss at what I was supposed to do next. I clutched at the fabric over my heart even though I knew that the gesture can do nothing to soothe the ache that I felt. The other me, the young lad, was still trembling uncontrollably, trying to stifle his whimpers even though there was no one to watch him except me. He just sobbed there quietly without anyone to neither reassure him nor comfort him. I understood that pain very well because the both of us are the same person, after all.

I just allowed my tears to fall freely as I looked up at the crying sky. A swarm of emotions run through me like a storm. I would have given some examples but I think there was just too many to enumerate all of them and I wasn’t even sure which ones were what I am feeling right now.

This weather….The rain…it almost looked like it was trying to wash away all of the suffering that had gone through here…But, it was quite futile. The rain might be able to clean the blood that was painted on the ground and the walls but it can never heal the scars that were left behind. That was my conclusion. I returned my gaze to the grieving boy and this is what I thought….

I know that in my heart, this person is very important to me even if I can’t see his face or any of his features. Because if it was just another random person, would I be crying so miserably here?

But whoever this person may be……I could only wish that the day never comes when I have to grieve for his death…..

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Author’s Note: I actually got the idea for this fic from the dream I had the other day (9/10/07). . So…uhhh…did you like it or did you hate it? Or was it not angsty/emo enough? Was it OOC? Please feel free to comment! Constructive criticisms are also welcome! I‘ll really appreciate it! Thank you for reading!

bookman_junior @ 2007-08-10T22:17:00

2007-08-10T14:44:11Z

Yo! It's Lavi's birthday today so I decided to post a fanfic. I hope you like it!

Title: Birthday present
Pairing: Kanda/Lavi
Rating: I don't know...I'm not good with this

Advanced Notes: This is a Kanda/Lavi that I wrote for Lavi’s birthday. I hope you like

it! ^o^

Disclaimer: Hoshino Katsura-san owns D.gray-man. On with the story!

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Kanda was just walking down the halls, on his way to the cafeteria to have his usual breakfast. Everyone already knows what his breakfast consisted of: soba and tempura, no more and no less. He actually seemed to be in a good mood today. And by ‘good’ it means that he wouldn’t try to kill you just because of being annoying in his point of view. But of course, he still had that ever-present frown plastered to his face. He would stay in this mood as long as he wouldn’t see nor hear…

“Yu~u!”

That was all it took to have Kanda Yuu lose his ‘good’ mood. He quickly turned on his heel and faced the only one who was brave enough to call him by his given name: Lavi.

“What the hell do you want!? And I told you not to call me that.” Kanda’s every word dripped with venom, and he gave his normal death glare. But as usual, Lavi seemed to be oblivious to it or was just ignoring it completely.

“Maa…Maa…Yuu-chan. There’s no need for you to be so angry this early in the morning.” Lavi raised both his hands in a surrendering position, but his smile was still present. Kanda just kept glaring at the annoying person in front of him, thinking of several creative ways to kill the redhead.

“I can do whatever I want, idiot.” Kanda crossed his arms over his chest with a scowl forming on his face. Most normal people would have already run for their lives once Kanda was pissed off like this, but Lavi wasn’t like most normal people.

“Yah, ok. Anyways, I just called you to ask a question.” Lavi explained. Kanda was wondering what that question would be.

“Just spit it out already!” Kanda said impatiently ‘What does this idiot have to ask that’s seems so important? I still have to eat my breakfast.’

“Well, do you know what day it is today?” Lavi asked with a look of expectation. Kanda just had a blank look. Then, a vein appeared on his head and his eye twitched a little. Kanda did all he can to suppress the irritation that was rising, but some of it was still released.

“How the heck should I know and why would I care!?” Kanda closed his eyes when he said this line. Once he finished, he opened both of his eyes again and was somewhat taken a back at what he saw. It was only for a split second but the sword-wielding exorcist was sure that he saw a look of hurt and disappointment on the Bookman-in-training’s normally cheerful face.

“La-“ Kanda was cut off when Lavi looked at him with an apologetic smile.

“Oh…uhh…ok! Uhm…I’ll be going now. See ya later!” Lavi quickly turned away and ran out of Kanda’s sight. The latter had noted that there was a little bitterness in Lavi’s voice. ‘What the hell is today anyway? Why did he look so upset?’ Kanda did feel a bit guilty for making that look cross the redhead’s face, but he would never admit that to anyone. He wouldn’t even admit it to himself so, why would he tell it out loud to somebody? This guilt haunted his conscience while he walked down the halls. That’s why when he spotted a random Finder, he decided to ask him.

“Hey, you!” Kanda gave a threatening glare that made the Finder shake in fear.

“AH! Wh-What i-is it, S-si-sir K-Kanda, sir?” The Finder stuttered and fidgeted helplessly. The poor guy just wanted to just run and hide in a corner where no one can find him, specifically Kanda.

“What’s the date today?” The samurai asked coldly

“Th-The date, sir? It’s August 10, sir. Why do you ask?” The unfortunate Finder quickly placed both of his hands over his mouth, but it was already too late. His curiosity had already leaked and come out from his mouth.

“I’mveryverysorrysir!!!! I-I didn’tmeantosirIswear!!!” He quickly kneeled and bowed in apology continuously. The Finder was now crying in fear for his life. Kanda thought that the crying man was pathetic, but he thought of the entire group of Finders that way, too.

“Che.” Kanda walked past the begging Finder and left. The bewildered Finder looked at Kanda’s retreating back and just stared with his mouth gaping like a carp. Kanda had turned around a corner and he could still hear the Finder muttering ‘I was spared! Thank you, God! Thank you, God!’ Some of the other Finders and one or two Exorcists watched him cry in happiness of being spared. A few have even commented ‘He’s lucky.’ or ‘Wow, God’s watching that guy today.’

Kanda just ignored them and walked on to the cafeteria. ‘Damn! That’s why he looked so disappointed.’ Realization had dawned on him the moment the Finder had answered his question. He hadn’t really meant to forget Lavi’s birthday. It’s just that he was so busy that he wasn’t keeping track of the date anymore. ‘Should I apologize?’ Even though he wanted to ask for forgiveness, Kanda didn’t know if he can swallow his pride for that task or not. His conscience had now started to bug Kanda, but it wasn’t that bad, yet.

As he arrived at the cafeteria, Kanda saw two of his fellow Exorcists conversing. These were Allen and Lenalee in particular. They wouldn’t have caught Kanda’s attention if they weren’t talking about the certain person he was currently thinking about.

“Have you seen Lavi, Allen?” Lenalee had asked.

“No, not yet…I haven’t seen him. I’m really wondering where he is, though.” Allen answered, stopping to look around.

“I wanted to greet him a happy birthday, but I can’t find him anywhere in the HQ.” Lenalee looked to the side.

“Me, too.” Allen answered while eating another bowl of rice. The Chinese girl just sighed. She happened to turn around when Kanda entered. Her face brightened and she quickly approached the swordsman.

“Good Morning, Kanda.” Lenalee greeted him. Kanda just grunted in return. Lenalee was smiling cheerfully.

“Did you happen to see Lavi?” Kanda didn’t know whether he should answer the Chief Supervisor’s sister truthfully. He had two alternatives: 1) He could simply say the truth and tell Lenalee that he had seen and even talked with Lavi earlier and have her asking him for details of the hammer-wielding exorcist’s current whereabouts and such or 2) He could just say that he hadn’t seen Lavi and get away to have breakfast (and maybe look for the Bookman-in-training after eating). Kanda found Choice 2 to be more appealing so…

“No.” Kanda answered shortly

“Oh…It seems that nobody has seen him yet today. Everyone I asked all had the same answer as you. Where could he be? Oh! Sorry for bothering you, Kanda. Have a good breakfast” Lenalee smiled, waved, and returned to her seat beside Allen.

Kanda headed for the counter to take his usual order from Jerry. The moment he reached the said place, Jerry immediately greeted him cheerfully.

“Good Morning! The usual order?” The Indian asked enthusiastically. Kanda just gave a nod of approval and waited as the chef disappeared for a while and reappeared with his order.

“Enjoy!” Kanda turned around and took a seat on an empty table. He ate quietly, still thinking about the redhead. He tried to pry those thoughts away but Lavi’s sad face haunted him bad so he quickly ate his breakfast. ‘Kuso! Why can’t I stop thinking of THAT?’ After he finished eating, Kanda exited the cafeteria. He actually planned to do some extra training today, but he still can’t get his guilt to disappear so he ended up looking for Lavi instead.

Kanda tried to search the library first; he had looked thoroughly, but there was not a single trace of the red-haired exorcist. So, Kanda moved to Lavi’s quarters, but like before, the one he was looking for was not there. He then tried browsing every part of the HQ he knew. He looked high and low, but Lavi was still nowhere to be found.

‘Che. Why am I even trying to look for him?’ Kanda thought to himself. And as if answering his question, a voice spoke.

‘It’s because you are the one who made him sad on his birthday, baka no teme.’ A huge vein suddenly appeared on Kanda’s head as soon as the voice finished speaking. Everyone that was within the area had quickly scurried away in fear.

“WHO THE HELL ARE YOU CALLING AN ‘IDIOTIC BASTARD’!?!?” Kanda shouted into the empty space before him.

‘You. Isn’t it obvious, aho?’ The voice answered lazily

‘What are you?’

‘I’m your conscience, you jerk.’

‘Stop calling me names, teme!’

‘By calling me ‘teme’, you’re admitting that you are one.’

‘Damare!’

‘Fine, I will. But I have one more thing to say. You should find Lavi and apologize no matter what.’

‘Why should I do that, huh?’

‘One- because it’s his birthday. Two- because you want to, anyway. And Three- because he’s your best friend. Maybe even more…’

‘What!?’ Kanda was really surprised by the thought he heard. At the same time, he thought that he was going mad due to that conversation he had with his so called ‘conscience’.

‘What did it mean by ‘Maybe even more…’?’ The swordsman sighed continued to walk down the halls of the Black Order.

‘If I were that idiot, where would I be? Hmm...’ Kanda remembered a time during his childhood with Lavi…

Flashback

“Yu~u!”

The young Kanda turned around to be greeted by an enthusiastic lad of his age.

“What is it, Lavi?” Kanda asked tiredly. He eyed his companion warily. During this time, Kanda was still somewhat relatively ‘nice’.

“I have something to show you, Yuu~chan!” The other boy announced cheerfully.

“Something to show me?” Kanda repeated. He received a nod from the boy in front of him.

“Yup! I want to show you my special hiding spot!” Lavi said with a smile.

“Why would you want to show me your hiding spot? If I knew where it is then it won’t be your hiding spot anymore.” Kanda replied. Lavi just stared at him for a moment before he smiled again.

“It’s absolutely fine, Yuu. I’m going to show it to you because you’re my best friend!” Lavi looked at Kanda with a sincere look. Kanda couldn’t help but be a bit touched by his friend’s words. ‘Because you’re my best friend.’ He would definitely remember that.

“Yuu? Yuu. Are you ok? You seemed to have spaced out.” Lavi touched his and his companion’s forehead as if checking the latter for a fever. “You’re not sick or something, are you?” Lavi looked up with a worried face.

“I’m fine. Don’t worry. I was just thinking.” Kanda gave a small smile that was barely recognizable but Lavi saw it clearly and returned the gesture.

“I’m glad to hear that! C’mon, let’s go.” Lavi pulled on Kanda’s hand and led him out of the HQ. They were able to avoid being detected by other people within the Black Order and they were now in a forest.

“Lavi, where-“ Lavi looked back at him with a reassuring smile.

“Don’t worry, Yuu. We’re almost there.” The eye-patched boy continued to go deeper into the forest without letting go of Kanda’s hand. After going through multitudes of trees and thickets of shrubs, Lavi stopped and faced Kanda.

“We’re here!” Kanda scanned their surroundings and was amazed. They were currently standing on a cliff that overlooked the town and a large forest. On that cliff, a large tree was standing proudly. The sun was already about to set; its rays gave a brilliant shade of red, orange, and yellow to everything it was able to touch. But to Kanda, all of those colors still won’t be able to match his friend’s own fiery hair.

“Well? What do you think?” Lavi looked at him hopefully

“It’s beautiful.” Kanda answered truthfully

“Hehe…it is, isn’t it? I’m glad you like it.” Lavi grinned

“Yeah.” Kanda gave a nod of agreement

“I really like this place, you know. I can always get a spectacular view from here whether it’s at night, in the morning, or afternoon. But out of all the times I can pick, I especially like it at night when the stars and the moon are so vivid.” Lavi explained “But dawn and dusk are also nice to look at.”

“How long have you been coming here?” Kanda asked out of curiosity

“Huh? How long? Let’s see…hmm…It was a week ago. I only discovered this place by accident, but I’m really grateful I did. If I didn’t find this, what would I show you then?” Lavi gave Kanda a bright smile

“I see.” The two boys then became quiet as they watched the sun completely set and waited for the first star to appear. Even though silence reigned over them, Kanda and Lavi enjoyed each others presence.

Lavi broke the silence by saying, “Ne…Yuu?”

“What is it?” Kanda looked at Lavi curiously

“Can we do this some other time again? I mean…If you don’t mind, that is.” Lavi fidgeted a little bit as he said this. Kanda just gave a small understanding smile and gave a nod.

“Sure, why not?” Kanda agreed. He saw Lavi’s face brighten at the words he said and the latter gave a happy nod.

“Arigatou, Yuu!” Lavi spoke in Kanda’s native tongue, feeling that the words would have a deeper meaning that way. They continued to watch the heavens and, once again, a blanket of silence enveloped them. The stars had already started appearing above them when the silence was yet again broken. But this time, it was Kanda who did it.

“Lavi…” Kanda called

“Huh?”

“I want to tell you something.”

“Well, go ahead. I’m listening.”

“Thank you.” Lavi didn’t really get it at first so he stared at Kanda for a few seconds. Once Lavi realized what the other had meant, a smile slowly formed on his lips.

“You’re welcome.”

End of Flashback

‘Well, I might as well try looking there.’ Kanda trudged onwards with the intention of heading out the HQ. Once he was out, he quickly made his way through the forest to get to the cliff that Lavi had shown him. Even though it had been a long time ago since he went there, Kanda still remembered the path he took with Lavi perfectly. So, it didn’t really take long for the swordsman to get to his desired destination. Truth to be told, the Bookman apprentice was really there. He was currently sitting under the tree that stood on the cliff. Even Kanda was a bit surprised to find Lavi there. The Japanese noted that the hammer-wielding exorcist had his face covered by his arms. ‘Is he crying?’ Kanda thought guiltily.

“Oi!” Kanda abruptly said. Lavi quickly jerked his head upward and looked at Kanda.

“Yu-Yuu?” Lavi looked at Kanda as if he’d grown another head.

“What’s with that surprised look?” Kanda asked impatiently.

“N-Nothing. It’s just that…I didn’t expect you to look for me.” Lavi looked away as Kanda approached.

“I wasn’t looking for you, idiot.” Lavi just gave a half-hearted laugh at his friend’s comment.

“Yah, whatever you say.” Kanda took a seat nearby Lavi. They just sat there looking at the vast landscape before them. The both of them chose to remain silent for awhile but it seemed that Lavi couldn’t suppress himself from doing so.

“Hey, Yuu?” Kanda twitched at being called by his given name but he just ignored it for the sake of being nice to Lavi on the day of his birth.

“What?”

“Do you remember the time when I first showed you this place?” Kanda just gave a nod but he didn’t look at Lavi’s direction. “Don’t you think that today is kind of a de ja vu? “ Kanda had to agree with him. Today was almost exactly like the day the eye-patched boy had brought him to this place, but he would never admit it.

“Che.” Lavi just continued smiling, but Kanda knew that the other was still depressed from earlier.

“I’ll take that as a yes, then.” Lavi avoided any eye contact with Kanda because he feared that the Japanese exorcist would find out how disappointed he was really feeling.

‘Damn, he’s avoiding me. I need to somehow apologize…’ Kanda then got the idea of what to give Lavi, although he wasn’t very sure if that birthday gift will be accepted as an apology.

Kanda stood up and moved in front of Lavi. The Bookman-in-training slowly looked up with a confused look.

“Huh? What’s the matter, Yuu?” However, his question was not answered. Lavi watched Kanda lower himself to face Lavi on the same level. He then slowly moved his face nearer and nearer to Lavi’s. The confused boy didn’t know what to do and what was exactly happening; he was somehow curious at what the normally stoic swordsman would do.

“Yuu, what are-“ Lavi never got to finish his sentence as Kanda captured Lavi’s lips with his own. Lavi’s visible eye immediately widened at Kanda’s action. He tried to struggle, but the long haired exorcist just pinned him back to the tree. Lavi tried to voice a protest but the moment he opened his mouth, something entered it. This something was Kanda’s tongue. Lavi felt a little bit uncomfortable as Kanda explored his mouth with his tongue, because it was a new experience for him. But after a little time, he got used to it, but his breath was running short. When Lavi thought his air supply was about to run out, Kanda pulled away and looked at him directly.

“Wh-What was *pant pant* that for?” Lavi had asked breathlessly. Kanda just looked at him with a smirk. Lavi was now blushing so hard that his cheeks were as bright as his hair. He was also panting quite hard and he was holding his chest with a shaky hand. Kanda, however, was looking perfectly fine compared to Lavi. Sure, he was panting a little but not as hard as Lavi.

‘I didn’t know he could be this innocent.’ Kanda only planned to answer the redhead’s with one simple phrase.

“Happy Birthday, Lavi.”

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Author’s note: Well, was it bad? Or did you like it? If you noticed, I was using Japanese words since Kanda is Japanese and Lavi also knew how to speak Japanese since he was Bookman’s successor. I know they’re OOC so, I’m very sorry! And some of you might complain that it’s too long, but I can’t help it! Please leave a comment, I’ll really appreciate it. You may also leave a constructive criticism if you want! Please feel free to comment about how OOC they were or correct me about my usage of the Japanese words. Thank you for reading! ^-^

So...tired...

2007-07-04T14:06:46Z

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! I'm cramming in my subjects! *sigh* I know I'm not the only one, but I need to relieve some stress.

Imagine, today I got news that I got only 73% in my Filipino quiz, owww. O_o Then, I have a test in my Chinese tomorrow and on Friday and I still haven't studied!!! Yah, I know, call me lazy and all but that 73% is so depressing even though it's still passing (in my school, that is). *sigh* And the assignments, the list..it's so long!

Nakakapagod yung mga teacher ko. >o< Anyways, thank you for reading (if there is anyone).

bookman_junior @ 2007-06-28T20:21:00

2007-06-28T12:57:35Z

Hey...sorry if I'm spamming your friend list or something but...

Is it just me or...

I can't help but notice...Did Lavi's eye-patch burn from his 'Hi-Ban'?

See? Look right there at the right side of his face(his cheek). You can't see the strap of his eye-patch anymore, but his eye is still covered by his headband.

P.S. Am I wrong? O_O Please tell me honestly. Btw, sorry for the small picture. ^-^;;

My second fic here!

2007-06-28T11:11:08Z

This is the second fanfic I'm posting, please enjoy!

Title: Allen in Wonderland
Disclaimer: Hoshino Katsura-san owns D.gray-man
Note: Might have a pairing and some shounen-ai in later chapters but I'm not yet sure

Summary: It’s as the title says. Read this to know how Allen would fare in Wonderland.

Read and Review! (^-^)

Disclaimer: D.Gray-man is owned by Hoshino-san. Simple disclaimer, yah?

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Chapter 1: The Beginning

Allen was heading out of the library to find a place where he could read peacefully. Fortunately, while looking for a book, he spotted a tree with a nice shade underneath outside the window. Now, he was seated comfortably under that certain tree, reading the book he took from the library.

Allen had been reading for a while when he suddenly saw a blur pass by. Out of curiosity, Allen found himself looking for the blur. He looked around and saw the blur again.

"H-Hey! Wait!” Allen called out. But the blur didn’t hear it and ran out of sight. Allen continued to pursue ‘it’. When Allen reached a humongous tree he saw that the blur was actually Lavi. But something was different about him…

“Lavi! What are you doing here?” Allen asked approaching Lavi who was still a bit far away and facing the huge tree. Allen wondered why Lavi didn’t even turn around or greet him. Normally, Lavi would’ve called him ’Moyashi-chan!’ or just say ‘Yo!’ But that isn’t the case. Once Allen moved closer to Lavi, he noticed something. What he saw made him stop dead in his tracks. There was Lavi, standing there, with ears. No, no, not the normal ears but rabbit ears (to top that off his rabbit earsstill had an earring on each of it). And his clothes were different, although he still had a scarf and headband. One of the most notable additions was the large clock/watch hanging around Lavi’s neck by a long chain. Its size could be as large as his head. Last but not the least, Allen saw that other than a pair of rabbit ears, Lavi also had a rabbit’s tail.

“L-Lavi…What are you wearing?!” Allen was now right behind Lavi. He laid his hand on Lavi’s shoulder lightly. Lavi stiffened under Allen’s touch. He turned to face Allen quickly. Allen was surprised to see a pair of beautiful green orbs that put the most valuable emeralds and jades to shame. Now that he was this close to Lavi, Allen noticed that Lavi and he were almost the same height, Lavi only being taller by a centimeter. The sight of Lavi without an eye-patch made Allen blush.

“Where did your eye-patch go? Why do you have rabbit ears? What’s with those clothes? What’s with that big clock/watch? WHAT’S HAPPENING?!! TELL ME, LAVI!!!” Allen poured out all his questions in one breath and now he was panting. A look of confusion crossed Lavi’s face.

“What do you mean? My name’s not Lavi. I’m the March Hare. And who are you anyway?” Lavi faced Allen with a curious expression.

“Wh-What is going on…?” Allen’s face blanched. It seemed that he got frozen on the spot due to the extreme shock he felt. ‘Lavi’ took a glance at his clock and he looked alarmed.

“What’s the matter?” Allen asked worriedly.

“Ah! I don’t have much time! I’ll be late! Sorry but I can’t stay to chit-chat! Bye!” With that said, ‘Lavi’ quickly skipped away ‘into’ the tree. Allen’s jaw dropped when he saw the supposed-to-be- March-Hare suddenly got sucked into the tree. Allen, fearing what would happen next, approached the tree very cautiously. Inching near, Allen stopped when he was at least a foot away from the base of the same tree that swallowed ‘Lavi’ up.

“What should I do?” Allen looked left and right nervously. He touched the trunk gingerly and…

“AAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!” Allen got sucked in as well. He was falling from quite a height and he feared that he might die right there. One noticeable thing however was that during his fall, he could see a lot of random objects fly past him. Just when he was starting to lose his fear, Allen was alerted when he saw that the ground was dangerously near. With nothing else coming to his mind, Allen instinctively shut his eyes, crossed his arms in front of his face and prepared for the painful impact. After a few moments of waiting, Allen gained up the courage to open his eyes to see whether he had hit the ground or not. To his great shock, he had already landed.

“How? How did that happen?” Allen asked to no one in particular. Allen took his time in taking in his surroundings; he took note of how clean the environment was. Almost everywhere he looked, it was trees, trees, and a tail. ‘Wait, a tail?’ Allen thought.

Allen stepped closer to the tail hanging in mid-air. What he didn’t expect was to see a tall man with cat ears and tail, who seemingly appeared out of nowhere. With second inspection, Allen figured it was actually Komui.

“K-Komui? What are you doing here? And why are you wearing such a strange outfit?” Allen asked with a grimace on his face, taking a step back at the sight before him. There was Komui, standing there with a ridiculous-looking cat costume that was colored with black and purple stripes. Let’s not forget his hat and the ever-present coffee mug (don’t ask me why he has that) with a rabbit design on it.

“Hey! What’s with that comment?! And I was also going to compliment you for your cute dress! Hmmph!” ‘Komui’ pouted and looked away indignantly.

“Cute….dress?” Allen stiffly started looking down at his clothes. What met his eyes was a blue frilly dress that was just a little bit above his knees. It had an apron that was tied into a neat bow at the back and a pair of black shoes.

“AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! WHAT IS REALLY HAPPENING HEEERREE????!!!!”

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Author’s notes: That’s it for the first chapter! You all thought Kanda was going to be the cat, yah? Sorry if you wanted it that way…^-^;; Anyways, please leave a comment after reading. I’ll also willingly accept constructive criticism(I know I suck at this). Till the next chapter. Thank you for reading!

Yo!

2007-06-17T09:01:20Z

Hi! I'm a complete newbie here so please don't be harsh on me!

I wrote a fanfic, please enjoy!

Title: What lies underneath the surface
Rating: Maybe PG-13 because of kissing
Disclaimer Hoshino Katsura-san owns D.gray-man
Pairing: Tyki/Lavi, a hint of Kanda/Allen

Advanced notes: Lavi is wearing his thin black shirt, white pants and his boots, while Tyki will be wearing his normal clothes with the top hat but minus the cane. ^o^ Enjoy!

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Lavi has always liked Kanda Yuu. Ever since he saw the stoic swordsman, he felt that he loved him. Although he openly shows it to Yuu, he knows that the other would never return such feelings to him. He knew…no…He knows that it would take a lot of time and effort to melt the ice barrier that surrounded Kanda. Although he knew this clearly, he still tried to melt that ice even just a little.

Then Allen came. Lavi was curious about Allen’s cursed eye and how the boy can be so cheerful even though he had a horrible past. Somehow, Lavi thought they were the same, acting as if nothing sad or traumatic had happened in their pasts. But Lavi knew in his heart that Allen was genuinely happy whenever he smiled. Lavi wished he could do the same but, like always, he knew it was impossible for him.

The first thing the Bookman-in-training noticed when Allen had arrived was the mutual connection between him and Kanda. Everyone had missed it but a future Bookman never misses a single detail. Sure, the two of them were always fighting when they met, whether it is in the hallways, the cafeteria, and on missions, you name it. Even with all their fighting, Lavi could tell that they loved and cared for each other dearly. After all, Allen was the one who opened up Kanda’s heart. Lavi loved the both of them and wanted them to be both happy, so he decided not to interfere with them.

Finally, after some time, Allen and Kanda had gotten together. The two of them had become close for some odd reason while on a mission in Venice and confessed their love for each other. After their confession, they were rarely seen fighting anymore. And they were inseparable as if they were glued to each other now. Once, while on a mission with the two of them, Lavi had seen how they protected each other selflessly. They had even forgotten that Lavi was also there.

Of course, Lavi was very happy for them but he couldn’t help but feel that he’s alone and feeling lonely. Lavi laughed at himself for that because it was in the Bookman’s code to be alone for the rest of his life.

“A Bookman has no need for a heart……” Lavi repeated the phrase to himself. He can never forget that. In the first place he knew that he shouldn’t have fallen in love with the two. A Bookman cannot love nor interfere with anything because they were only spectators; they were only there to simply record what was happening in the war. He says to himself that he shouldn’t feel lonely because it was meant to happen anyway and instead he should feel happy. But even if scolded himself a million times he still felt solitude.

“Ahh! Why am I feeling this way? I…shouldn’t feel this….I can’t…I’m Bookman’s successor! But…but…I can’t…I can’t help it!” Lavi held his face in his hands. He felt a tear fall from his eye; he was alarmed by this.

“…ah…What am I crying for?! I should be happy that they finally confessed their undying love for each other…!” Lavi scolded himself again. He remembered when he used to be able to eat with Allen or Yuu, but nowadays he can’t even talk with them properly anymore because they were always with each other and they ignored everything around them as if no one but they existed.

“I should go for a walk. Maybe that would clear my head…hopefully.” Lavi exited the library and headed out of the HQ. He went to a forest where he usually hangs out when he feels confused or depressed. In that forest, a large oak tree stood firmly. It was about 50 years old or so judging by the thickness of its trunk. Lavi always found that tree as comforting whenever he came. Since the time he first arrived at the HQ, this tree had somehow become his second sanctuary next to the library.

Lavi sat on one of the big roots where he always sat comfortably. He sat there for awhile thinking his thoughts through with less turmoil in his heart. He was still contemplating everything when he heard a noise to his side. He quickly activated his Innocence out of instinct and prepared himself for an attack. He was greatly surprised to see that the intruder was no other than Tyki Mikk, member of the Noah family and killer of one general, six exorcists, and have even killed Allen before.

“You!” Lavi raised his weapon, ready to attack his assailant but he was stopped when the older man raised his hand and spoke.

“Wait. I didn’t come here to fight.” Tyki spoke calmly

“What kind of fool do you take me for?!” Lavi exclaimed

“I know it’s hard to believe but I mean no harm, Eye-patch-chan.” Tyki teased

“D-Don’t call me that!” Lavi was flustered by being called THAT ‘Eye.Patch.CHAN?! Is he insulting me?’

“Oh? Don’t be embarrassed. You need company, don’t you? So, lower your weapon.” Tyki approached Lavi slowly. Lavi cautiously moved a step back. He started to lower his anti-Akuma weapon slowly. Somehow his confused and sorrowful state had extinguished his fighting spirit. And he did need a companion even though he knows Tyki can kill him at any moment.

“A-Aren’t you here to kill me…?” Lavi consciously sat on his regular sit while watching Tyki take off his hat and take a sit himself.

“(Sigh) If that was my intention you would be missing your vital organs by now.” Tyki looked up at the full moon

“Oh…Why are you here then?” Lavi looked at him curiously

“I told you, right? You need some company.” Tyki looked him in the eye. Lavi quickly averted his gaze from Tyki with a light blush on his cheeks.

“Uhm…So, are you saying you came here to accompany me?” Lavi asked still looking away. But when he didn’t hear a reply he looked back and saw Tyki smiling at him with a slow nod.

“But why? We’re enemies. Aren’t you supposed to fight or kill me?” Lavi looked at the Noah but he still can’t look at the latter’s eyes.

“Would you want it that way right now?” Tyki inquired reaching for Lavi. Lavi backed away almost immediately and shook his head vigorously.

“N-No that’s not what I meant at all!!! It’s just that…It feels strange…you know…” Lavi scratched the back of his neck nervously. ‘Why am I so comfortable talking to him…?’

“I know you might feel that way. But you’re the next Bookman, right? So that means you have neither enemies nor allies.” Tyki stated the obvious. Lavi was struck by that statement and remembered Panda’s own words: We are not their allies. We are only on the Order’s side by chance.

“I…You’re right…But how did you know I was here?” Lavi wondered

“That….is a secret you’ll never know.” Tyki said mischievously

“Well, I won’t pester you about that anymore…” Lavi hugged his knees to his chest. This action made Lavi look smaller and even more vulnerable than he was already.

“So, are you going to divulge your problem to me?” Tyki asked expectantly

“I…” Lavi hesitated for awhile before he continued with a shaky breath “…I feel alone and I’m longing for a companion…But I am the next Bookman. A Bookman has no need for a heart…Even if I wanted to, I…I can never have a heart!” Lavi hadn’t noticed that tears were falling freely down his cheek by now. He didn’t know why he was letting himself cry either. He jerked when he felt a warm hand touch his cheek and wipe some of the tears away.

“How can someone crying like you have no heart? You have a heart but it is chained…That’s why you feel pain and sorrow right now.” Tyki said comfortingly and hugged Lavi to his chest. The crying boy tried to push away but submitted almost immediately to the hug. He clung to Tyki while he sobbed silently into the elder’s chest.

“Why…?” Lavi had so many questions like ‘What is your purpose for doing this?’ or ‘Why are you trying to comfort me?’ but ‘why’ was the only word he could utter.

“Because I know how it feels…to be abandoned.” Tyki said honestly

“I-I….wasn’t abandoned…” Lavi was alarmed by the idea of being abandoned. It made his heart twinge whenever he thought of it.

“I know but that’s not what I meant. What I mean is that the ones you loved might be still very near but you feel as if they’re so far, out of your reach.” Tyki explained while running his hand through Lavi’s hair in a soothing manner.

“I guess you’re right.” Lavi to pull away but his companion’s hold was tight, “Tyki?” He looked up at the swarthy man with a confused expression.

“You’re still feeling bitter and lonely, aren’t you, Lavi-chan?” Tyki smiled at the shorter boy knowingly.

“…..Wait! W-Why are you calling me by my name?!” Lavi’s eye widened comically.

“Why? Didn’t you just call me by my name as well?” Tyki smirked at this. He thought Lavi looked adorable when in this state and he could also see that Lavi’s pain is starting to fade away.

“I did? I did!!! No! Ahhh! What will I do?! I shouldn’t even have talked to you! Oh no…” Lavi bit on his thumb thinking what might happen and what will he do if someone found out. He was so into thinking that he forgot that he was still in Tyki’s arms. Trying to be a gentleman, Tyki waited patiently for the young man to snap out of it. After just a few minutes, Tyki took the courtesy of snapping the boy out of his negative thoughts.

Lavi was startled when he felt Tyki’s hand on his head and he looked up. Another realization hit Lavi’s mind and he abruptly stood and fell on his butt. Tyki couldn’t help but chukle at the other’s predicament. Lavi didn’t make a move to stand up and just stuck his tongue out due to his habit.

“Oi! Don’t laugh! I can’t believe I didn’t notice I was sitting on your lap this whole time.” Lavi muttered the last sentence to himself but Tyki heard it loud and clear. This was yet another reason for the Noah clan/family member to laugh.

“What?!” Lavi crossed his arms indignantly

“It’s-It’s just that*snicker*that expression*snicker*makes you look so cute!” Tyki had to cover his mouth to try to stop his laughter but it was useless anyway.

“You think…I’m……” Lavi made sure to make a pause, “….cute?” Lavi had a dumbfounded look on his face and he pointed at himself for emphasis. He received a nod from Tyki and that just added the shock that he already felt. ‘Cute’ coming from the mouth of this certain Noah was already surprising enough but THAT word being directed at HIM(Lavi), NO WAY IN HELL!!!

“You have got to be…CRAZY!!!” Lavi roared at Tyki but that didn’t take the smirk off the mischievous man’s face. The Bookman-in-training calmed down a bit and stood up, brushing the dirt off his clothes.

“I’ll be heading back now.” Lavi turned to walk away but was stopped when Tyki held his wrist.

“Wait.” Tyki had a serious look in his eyes; this got Lavi’s attention quickly.

“Wh-What is it?” Lavi stuttered at the intense look Tyki was giving him. However, his question was not answered. Instead, Tyki held Lavi by the waist and used his other hand (the one he used to hold Lavi’s wrist) to lift Lavi’s chin. Lavi could only stare with wide eyes as he realized that his voice was caught in his throat and that he was paralyzed due to surprise, fear, and the sheer suspense of what’s happening.

Tyki slowly lowered his face to Lavi’s before kissing the puzzled boy gently on the lips. Lavi’s eye had widened even more at the contact of the other man’s lips on his own. Even though it only lasted a few seconds, Lavi defiantly felt it. Tyki let go of Lavi’s chin but still held the boy to him.

“Well?” Tyki asked, “Aren’t you going to struggle?” He touched Lavi’s cheek lightly, stroking it lovingly.

“Ah…I-I….I don’t know what to say.” Lavi averted Tyki’s gaze embarrassedly. His cheeks were so red that he believed it could match his fiery hair. Tyki just held the boy to his chest and stroked his head. Lavi felt strangely comfortable in Tyki’s hold and getting his head stroked.

“I…” Lavi started

“Yes? What is it?” Tyki looked down at his companion

“You know….that was my…” Lavi couldn’t help but stop and blush a harder shade of red (if that’s even possible).

“What was your what?” As cunning as Tyki is he couldn’t grasp what the other meant. He heard Lavi mumble incoherently. “I beg your pardon?”

Lavi let out a nervous breath and continued, “I-I said that was my….” He looked uncertainly at Tyki who gave him a go-ahead-look and finished saying, “That was my first kiss….”

Tyki’s expression was unreadable for a moment and this made Lavi even more nervous. Then the Noah (Fucker, maybe.Lol^-^) laughed. ‘He laughed. HE-LAUGHED. He just laughs at me! Doesn’t he know it’s serious? Wait a minute, why did I even tell him that?’

Lavi contemplated everything in his mind and decided to punish himself later (by doing a hell lot of work and some random things). The exorcist could only glare at the taller man as he laughed. After some time, Tyki finally stopped laughing, holding his stomach and wiping a tear from his eyes.

“Ah..ha…So-rry but I couldn’t help it.” Tyki straightened himself and looked at the younger boy

“What do you mean?” Lavi was generally confused

“It’s because *that* wasn’t even a real kiss yet.” Tyki put a lot of emphasis on the word that.

“Huh?” Lavi was cut off when Tyki once again held his waist and lifted his chin to kiss him. Only this time it had more force in it. Lavi opened his mouth in surprise and he was shocked when he felt something slip into his mouth. He found out that it was actually Tyki’s tongue; his eye widened again. ‘Ack! H-He’s tongue. Ahh..!’

“Mmmphh…!” Lavi started squirming because of the strange, new sensation he was feeling in his mouth. Tyki did his best to keep Lavi from moving away. Lavi’s squirming stopped at a slow pace and he finally relaxed and let his visible eye flutter close.

The need for air grew and Tyki was forced to dispel the kiss. He looked at Lavi carefully and saw that the boy was deeply flushed. His face was as red as a tomato. Lavi was gasping quite hard and he felt as if his legs are going to give out on him so he leaned into Tyki for support (which the older one enjoyed <mind you.>).

“Now *that* was a real kiss.” Tyki smirked while licking his lips. This made Lavi blush ten times harder. When he didn’t get a reply, Tyki started to worry a little.

“Hey, are you alright?” Tyki asked looking directly at Lavi’s face with concern written all over his face.

“Y-Yes…I’m fine. I was just….surprised, that’s all.” Lavi nodded and looked up at Tyki with a reassuring expression. Tyki gave out a sigh of relief and continued to hug Lavi again.

“I was worried because I thought your heart stopped beating.” Tyki ran a hand through his hair while explaining this.

“You were worried?” Lavi was confused at this revelation. He didn’t what was the right reaction he should give to his ‘comforter’.

“Of course I was. I’m your lover so I should take care of you.” Tyki meant every word he said sincerely. He even placed his hand on his left chest, over his heart.

“Lo-Lo-LOVER?!?!?!” Lavi backed away a little to look at Tyki’s face carefully to know whether the gambler was lying or not. He found no trace of malice nor fake concern in the darker man’s eyes. Instead, he saw genuine love and pure concern.

“I don’t know what to say.” Lavi confessed

“Don’t worry. I’m prepared to wait for your answer.” Tyki patted Lavi’s head lovingly to try to comfort and reassure the confused boy.

“Thank you.” Lavi flashed a happy smile at his so called ‘lover’. He was glad that Tyki would wait for his answer and not force him into things too suddenly.

“You’re welcome. I’ll see you again when you’re ready, ok?” Tyki placed his hat back on his head and cocked his head a bit to the side.

“Ok.” Lavi answered quietly. Tyki approached Lavi again and placed a chaste kiss on the younger one’s lips. Before Lavi can react, Tyki had stepped back and a gust of wind blew around him. Lavi had to cover his eye from the sudden gust so he couldn’t see Tyki. Once he opened his eye, Tyki was nowhere to be found. He searched frantically before he heard a voice.

‘I’ll be back to hear your answer, my little bunny-chan.’ Lavi was flustered by being called ‘bunny-chan’ but he figured he could live through it. He was also sure it was Tyki who had said those words.

“I’ll be seeing you then, koi.” Lavi whispered into the wind and turned to head back to the HQ with a smile gracing his lips.

‘Maybe…just maybe, he might be the one to be able to break the chains surrounding my heart’

Author’s note: So, did you like it? I’m only a newbie so please don’t kill me! I’m sorry for the whole lot of ‘…’ in Lavi’s dialogues. Please leave a comment! Oh! And you can also leave a constructive criticism if you want. Thank you for reading my ranting and my fanfic! ^-^